Katastrophe6912
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I want to write more stories. I want to be consistent and upload almost all of the time. But its just hard when you lack the motivation to do so. And no, I'm not here to have pity party. I'm writing here because i need to let out my frustrations. So if you decide to sit
through this, well buckle the fuck up!
Anyways.. I'm going to try to my best to keep this as short as possible. But basically, like i said, i lack motivation. One day I'll have a sudden burst of determination to write something. I'll think about long and hard, then I'll decide to write it. But when i write it out, it's just not what i expected it to be. I know i shouldn't have such high expectations when i clearly need lots of improvement, or else I'll end up disappointed with what I've written. I shouldn't compare my writing with others, i really really shouldn't. But its just so difficult not to. I'll read a story with unbelievably great grammar, descriptive words, and lots and lots of details. Then when i decide i want to write something, i immediately stop, because it doesn't turn out the way i want it to. And its just so frustrating. I know so many authors with great stories, and i just want to write one of those great stories. I want to write something that wont make me cringe everytime i read it, or regret ever having idea's. Its dumb and frustrating.
I apologize for being such a mess. Its 2 in the morning and i might delete this later. But i feel little better now that I've got this off my chest. Anyways to the people who stuck around and read through this whole thing, i appreciate it.