Kateline090

Mama... You really leave?

You leave?... Mama?...

Am i really that bad gf?... I am... I'm supposed to talk with him everyday... Not every two days... I'm really that bad huh... I shouldn't be in a relationship in the first place if i'm like this honestly... I... I don't know what to do...

I hate this... I was clean before meeting her... She ruined it... I was healing... I was uncomfortable and she continue asking photos... I did it because she was my dear gf... She told me how she would touch me and i liked it... She sometimes would ghost me and i would wait for her... She knew that... Thats why i broker with her... She was ignoring me sometimes and always asking for photos of my body... She would ask me to touch myself... And send audios of her calling me "su putita mexicana"... (Her little mexican bitch)... "Su perrita"... And i... I liked it because it was my only way to feel loved... When i broke up with her i heal a little and it got worse when i see him again... I'm really a misfortune girl/boy...

I miss you mama... I feel so alone in this hole...

I want to vomit so that means i have to eat less but that is what i wanted anyways, uhhhhhh so if you read one of my post You may read how someone i know wanted to ab*se me? Something like that anyways so i was with my family because it was mother day soooo... I see him... HE was there... I has to grab something from the car of my mother and HIS car was infront... HE was there... HE was in his car... HE was watching me... I didn't like it... It felt like he wanted to grab me... It felt like it was before... I FELT LIKE HOW HE TREATED ME YEARS AGO... I HATE IT AND I HATE HOW THE THOUGHTS THAT WERE ONCE AWAY RETURNED BECAUSE OF HIM, I THINK HOW SOMEONE WANTS TO TOUCH ME AGAIN... IM SCARED AGAIN... I hate it... I hate him...

So ughhhhh... I started to get in old habits and one off those is that i don't eat unless it's one meal... And it's bad because my mother has to call me personally to go eat but it's fine she doesn't seem to care or notice that i don't eat (⁠ ⁠╹⁠▽⁠╹⁠ ⁠)

also forgot to mention my mother never took me to see someone so i still have some feelings keeping there, but in general i'm fine at least a while before i snap... I guess?

Uhhhhh so like, i forgot i have this... But besides that school is killing me, i don't understand some parts but it's okay! As long that i don't fail... Just last exams in a few weeks and i will be fine.... hopefully ,:]

Uhhh so i don't use Wattpad much as before,  but i sometimes remember i have Wattpad, so uhhhh yeah, also I discover that the relationship i have with my partner was toxic... Don't worry i did get out off that relationship before it was too much late but yeah thats what happening lately (⁠•⁠ ⁠▽⁠ ⁠•⁠;⁠)