I tried very hard a year ago to write something that could tell the world that there is a happy ending to a sad life that’s up to you I guess I wanted to believe that because I always had a bad ending to the things in my life I’d be worthy or a happy ending being loved and cherished an ending that meant I have lived suffered and survived and that was faith, faith I shouldn’t have and should have never had I don’t know if I will ever finish Caliginous I don’t know if I will be the person Katerina comes out to on the other side maybe I wouldn’t be a person when I do.