River Sky

Sorry for my rant earlier. I'm ok now. Mom replaced my drinks and I got weed to clear my mind with some good ass music. 
          
          
          Mother mother's song Get Up is one of the best songs ever

I hate these weird things that I feel. I want affection, but I also don't wanna be touched. I feel so frustrated that I wanna cry or punch someone. I get irritated easily, uncomfortable/anxious easily which can cause anger, I get really happy for like an hour and then its back to either numb or sad, and I can't help it. I feel like sometimes I can't feel anything, but my mind is going at a million miles a second. I just wanna curl up in a ditch and be buried alive so I don't have to think anymore

Dude I hate living here sometimes.
          
          Context:
          
          I walked in at like midnight coming home from hanging out at my friend's house and I go to grab one of my smirnoff ice drinks. (I had 2 6 packs. One green apple and the other is grape) I open the fridge and see that there's only one green apple left. I had only had one. So 4 were gone. I'm pissed. My dumbass no good fucking loser older brother drank them. I asked mom who did and she said he did. Mom asked him why and this bitch had the nerve to say "I don't fucking care". He wonders why he barely has friends, no one in the family likes him, and I wish I was an only child. I'm so pissed that I wanna cry because I just hate him with all of my fucking dying soul. He got everything growing up because he was raised by my grandparents. I had to live with a drug and gambling addicted mother who would leave me home for DAYS without food in an apartment and have the downstairs neighbor check on me every once in a while. He still treats me like shit and talks shit when he's a worthless fucking man child who has 2 kids that will eventually grow up to hate him just like everyone else because he will never change.
          
          
          I really want a good hug rn...

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I removed Believable from smut and stuff because it made me as an author feel uncomfortable having something like that in my book. It was too weird and I never wanna think about it again. Thank you for understanding 

Hi i was just wanderimg what flag that is ?
          Bc I'm confused about it ...