I'm shy like really shy and not many people like me. I recently just got out of a emergency surgery and now am trying to thank the people who saved me but I can't cause there in America and I'm in Australia so life sucks. If I get to know someone they usually walk out of my life after a week or two so I'm lonely and it's not fun. But on the slight chance they stick around for longer then I start to have a friend but that doesn't happen a lot. 

I'm glad I know who saved me and majority of people would but I don't have many social medias so I can't talk to them and they are in America. 

Now that I Am starting to walk again I'm extremely happy and maybe just maybe I could run away from my horrible life past and present

My boyfriend died today 10/1/15 and i feel like it's all my fault he saved me from a semi truck and he got the impact instead of me I sprinted over to him and tried everything to save him but he was gone 

I wish I had someone I love stay in my life they all end up leaving or dead 

I hate life