Kayla Van Hoolwerff Hoolwerff

IF YOU ONLY KNEW
          
          I can't say I hate you because I don't 
          I can't say I love you because I won't 
          What I will say is if you only knew
          If you only knew what you put me through
          If you only knew how many times i have cried thinking about you 
          The hell you drew me into
          The pain you put me through because you lied and denied and pushed me aside
          I was always the first to know if you were okay 
          I pushed everyone away 
          I helped make you day 
          I was the only one to make sure you're okay 
          But only if you know I was drowning shouting crying and denying the fact that I care even if I was just a dare

I CAN NEVER BE THE ONE FOR ANYONE 
          
          I can never be the one for anyone 
          I can never find the one 
          What is the one 
          The one that loves you unconditionally 
          The one that sacrifice's everything for you 
          The one that would fight for you Kill for you 
          Do anything to keep you to protect you 
          Does those exist out there
          Will thay ever exist out there 
          Do thay only exist in my imagination 
          My imagination that is filled with rainbows and butterflies..all lies
          Everyone tells me love is pain love hurts again and again 
          Love is hard to explain 
          But it's also hard to obtain 
          It's hard to maintain 
          It's hard to contain 
          Yet I still search for it 
          I still wanna be kissed and missed 
          Knowing he doesnt exist

YOU SAID YOU WANTED ME 
          
          You said you wanted me 
          But you didnt take me 
          You said you liked me but you stoped talking to me 
          You said im the girl of your DREAMS
          The one you want on your TEAM
          You said im different  brilliant resilient 
          And then what you walked past me like you don't care
          Like I was never there
          You said this and you said that 
          And then you got mad and made me feel bad 
          And i forgave you with everything I had
          But at the end i realized 
          I don't miss you I miss the idea of you the perfect made up version of you 
          The memories of you 
          I miss everything but u 
          So what the point of second chances reading a book twice won't change the ending 
          A second chance won't think your thinking

One of my favorite poems 
          MAYBE IM FOR NO ONE 
          
          Maybe im for no one 
          Maybe alone is where im meant to be 
          Everyone says you'll find the one just wait and see 
          But what if the one was never for me 
          What if im done overshareing with someone who don't even text back 
          What if im done wasting a nother Saturday overthinking a K reply 
          What if im teird chasing what isn't real 
          Thay all were lies in disguise red flags all in there eyes 
          Every ONE was a lesson i didnt request a pain in my heart a weight on my chest maybe im for no one and maybe that's okay 
          Maybe im better of finding my own way so I let them go and let them grow 
          Maybe im for no one and that's all I needed to know

I am here for love i don't read the books anymore I don't have social media so im looking here for love

I am ready for anything and I will be happy with anyone

I will only accept if your 15-18 if you want so im looking for love

Hey im a 15 year old girl and im bisexual but mostly for females 

Hi do you have a social media ?

Im 14 years old just so you all know