Hey my beautiful souls!
DEEP AND MEANINGFUL AHEAD!
I feel as though an explanation is warranted for my absence and lack of updates.
First, let me just say that M&P is a very close and personal story. A lot of characters have bases, however mildly, of real life people that have shaped who I am. I sometimes look at myself and see Matty, sometimes I'm Pat, and other times I'm Valerie. Frank is the person I always needed and most times had to be myself.
Second, in saying that, it came as a shock when I went through the book from the beginning to fix up a contingency error I had made and realised that one character in the book is an exact replica of someone in my real life. No fiction. Well, of course a little. But titles in my books mean nothing in real life. The fact that this monster of a character I had created is mirrored so deeply in another person shook me.
After this, I had to take a step back. I do intend to continue this story. I don't intend to change characters. I just felt as though I couldn't breathe and that I was suddenly trapped in my reality.
I want each and every single one of you to keep an eye out for warning signs in friends, family and even strangers. Things you see the four main characters do, or say. It's important to remember to do this for yourself. Reach out. There are people out there who will listen and help, but you need to take the first step, and it's a big one. Tip toe if you must, but take the step.
Thirdly, I will be updating M&P soon. I'm just finishing some things, but the ending is near!
Thank you so much to everyone who stuck with me in my first attempt at writing. I really do appreciate you all xx