okay so maybe i'm going to sound like dramatic and typical or smthing but honestly i feel so alone sometimes and i feel like i have no one to talk to or who gets me or who can comfort me. and my family's not bad and i shouldn't complain but they can just be so annoying and suffocating and insulting sometimes, even if they don't mean it or realize it. and somedays i just see myself and i can't help but think i look so ugly or that i should lose weight or something, even though i'm not terrible looking and i have a normal healthy bmi. and somedays i just tear myself apart so much, i, or rather my thoughts, just spiral downwards into this neverending hole of all the things wrong with me and whatnot. and i also feel so alone and i can't even go outside the house and i feel like i have no one to talk to and stuff and like i'm not even doing anything productive these days and i just hate it all, everything, hate how i feel so down.
anywho i just needed to say this, don't mind me.