Keaita
Red maple leaves falling ground
Echoing in deer's cry
Each is a goodbye
Keaita
Keaita
"O yüzden sence de Ayçiçeği ismi çok siktiriboktan değil mi? He he değil mi? Günebakan daha iyi değil mi? Ayçiçeği ismini kim bulduysa güneş ne ay ne bilmiyormuş resmen, hem çiçekler güneşe benziyor. Sallamış resmen."
Keaita
This passage presents an epiphany, as he grows conscious of his’s importance to him—an awareness that borders on love.
Keaita
If I had 9 lives
I'd spend the first one drowning
feel the water seep into my lungs
stealing my oxygen and stripping my breath
maybe after I become unconscious
I'd find peace
and I would no longer fear the ocean
I could spend the rest of my 8 lives living by the water, living with no fears
Keaita
But I don't have nine lives, I just have this one.
So I guess I'll spend it sitting by the ocean, and waiting for you
Keaita
For my 8th life, I'll live it alone. I'll write books
Live in a little apartment in New York City
spend my days writing in a cafe around the block from where I live
and drink wine before bed
I'll do yoga, eat clean
and have an occasional cigarette off my balcony
I'll raise a cat by myself
and he will watch me take my last breath before my last life
In my final life, I'll look for you
I'll wait at the bus stops, move back to our hometown, try and find you at shitty dive bars
and write letter I'll never send
I'll realize after living 8 lives something was missing
Going about life without the person I loved made it all seem meaningless.
Keaita
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For my next two
I'd spend each one with my parents
Live in their shadows, learn their deepest secrets and listen their regrets
just so I don't fuck up lives 4 through 9
I'll hold their hands gently and watch them take their last breaths
In my fourth life I'll run away
I'll run away from myself, the person I can not change
Because I am still too naive to understand that I am all the things that are wrong with me
I'll chase butterflies and try to find myself
I'll look in all the wrong places, wrong cities, wrong people
and before I know it I've ran through 3 of my 9 lives.
In my 7th life I'll listen my parents advice, I'll work a 9-5
Make a stable income, settling down with a man I am not sure I'm in love with, but he is a good father to my children
We will have a white picket fence, red door and a big fluffy dog that barks at the mailman