Chaos #4

A starting test, a new beginning 
          From humble start to haunting ending 
          Everything on repeat 
          Everyone in retreat 
          But how did we get here?
          “I’ve been alone for so long”
          Everything set aflame 
          Setting sun over a desert plane
          Sand soaking in the red
          Broken hearts and traitor friends 
          An oath kept till final breath 
          Continues beyond the first fall
          But in the end oath falls at the last
          A life traded for another 
          But was it worth it?
          Lilacs and poppies can only go so far
          In the end it didn’t matter 
          What matters
          Catching moments in the chaos
          The wars and tribulations 
          Flower husbands and desert duo
          They all died in the end
          We’re all gonna die
          “Science and discovery” 
          Is it worth it?
          Is it worth it to try so hard 
          Just for everything to fail?
          Monopolies and mountains
          Never a worse combo
          “It was just a prank”
          But a prank that ended another
          From there the oath was sworn 
          From there everything began
          As it begins so it ends
          In the ending of another 
          But through the dark we see the light
          “Everything [it] … touches is ours”
          Through the regret see the smiles
          Smiling through the pain
          Small moments lost beneath 
          The truth and trials
          Pizza and Bubbles
          Scars and wings
          Bet it fell with the last step
          Tumbling down the cliff
          Falling with the bound bird
          Lost in grief and memory 
          Cursed sight
          Watching always watching 
          Thirsting for more
          Begging for nothing 
          Like the world the bird fell
          Fell
          Fell
          Fell into a forced normalcy 
          Normal till the next life spent
          Then it all starts again.

Okay, so you know how dust is a large percentage of human skin cells? Right so that means that us as humans are committing cannibalism every single time we breathe or eat or drink. Because technically that was once a part of a human which is of our species that we have consumed willingly. Because for the most part we willingly breathe or eat or drink. So all of humanity is cannibalistic.

https://youtu.be/4Tt0dg18nV8?si=zt9Gr_UDEQcB9vi-
          
          Y'all this animatic- I'm speechless

Okay so I am just barely finishing up watching the Impossible Minecraft series, and would you look at that, the birds, the parrot and the canary, went to go find their wings. Huh. Coincidence? I think probably but who cares imma gonna call it intentional lore!

For the Essays book do y'all want to see teacher comments and stuff?

Y’all how do you write APA style? I have like 3 APA style essays to do but idk how to write them. (I know it’s a science or psychology/sociology based thing and I have a topic and 5 sources for the first essay but I can’t start even though it is due tomorrow ‘cause Idk how to format it).  Also, taking college stuff is great, until it isn’t. And to think I still have to do the actual college part. 
          Also, does anyone know what could cause random dime sized hole wounds just above the ankle in an L shape? I have four of them on both leg on the outside and I have no idea how I got them, just that it has been 5 days and they still are bleeding if I move wrong, which is impossible not to do when I skate. 
          And a quick story because I haven’t been on in a while: I started a countdown for March 19th in my classes like 2 months ago, and then I got a bunch of threats and bribery offers by students and teachers alike to know what it was for. In reality I had no idea so when asked for a hint also I said was that it started with a C and ended with an S. Well fast forward to yesterday and I bought 3 packs of Oreos and walked around my school giving them to teachers (who were also doing an anything but a water bottle day) and half of my classes saying “Happy March 19th!” Now I am the type of person to randomly start evilly laughing at something I just thought, so when I’m going around with frozen Oreos (it is still very much winter where I live and I left the Oreos in my car) skipping and giggling to see what reactions I’d get, let’s just say I had quite a few people come up to me and say that I terrify them and Idk why but that’s one of my proudest things. Anyways, I have decided to do this until I graduate (only 2 more years to go!!) and have begun the countdown all over again: 11 months ago and 30 days.

You are not invisible. You are seen and loved by so many, some you will never even know cared. People will turn away from you because they are afraid or ashamed of themselves, but you will never turn your back on them, or any who feel unseen because you are better, stronger, purer. Never forget. Never forget your worth. Never let anyone else determine who you are or who sees you. “To hide the forgotten, one must first know how it feels to be known.” -Me. They don’t know how it really is to be known, because all they show is a facades, a mask that even they can’t find the cracks in, don’t let them try to hide you.

If anyone wants to see, I changed one of the unfinished essays to the finished product!

Okay so random thing, I have some essays I’m really proud of for school (plus three that were due two weeks ago but oh well), would anyone want to read them? I’d of course remove any personal information and all that and I’d just make a new book for them but yeah. (And yes, this is me trying to work together motivation to do all my missing work for school, mainly essays.)   Anyways, after that bit of randomality, what is your favourite genre of books? Stay safe, and punch anyone who hurts you!

Hi! I crocheted the fisherman Grian I mentioned! Thought you could take a look.
          
          https://www.wattpad.com/1521496488-art-fanart-and-random-things-fishing-grian