i think it might be time for a check in. its been just over two months since i last went on hiatus, and ive been awol for most of it.
two months ago, i went to a really bad place. it was the most suicidal id been in a long time, and i nearly went through with it. it was a full on depressive episode, and it was dangerous. i didnt even want to make it out alive.
then it was the anniversary of my dad dying. then my work hours extended. then i got accepted into school, then i got sick, then i stopped eating, then i got even worse, and then i realized, it'd been so long since i'd even attempted to write. so i picked up my computer and tried, i tried to force something out because thats what yall deserve. i wanted to update partners in time because i know yall love it, because i know it would make yall happy, but nothing would come out.
idk if anyone follows this account anymore, dont know if anyone cares to read this, or my books, but i felt like i owe anyone who might care an explanation.
im not sure when im coming back, but im going to try and be a little more active again. ease into it slowly, and such. my messages are always open, i get those notifications on my phone. if you need me, you know where to find me.
goodnight.