I'm finally thinking of going to a psychiatrist.
I've been depressed since I was 12. My mother was emotionally and physically abusive. We were poor and my dad was absent. When my dad came back, all he did was traumatize. He is crazy and so is my mom. Many things, worsened my mental health to a point, I started to get sucidal. Ifeel sucidal everyday presently. But, I kept getting help on side.. Nd continued my living. But, now, after that incident, I realized how traumatized I am, normally as a person and that I'm way too delusional. Idk, but all the trauma is manifesting as actions in my daily life. This... Pushed me to get help.
Idk what those doctors are going to do with my mind. What if they ruin it even more for business... Nd make me crazy that I'll have to go to mental hospital ? Idk man but I still.. Should try my best...
. Nd I completely figured out the book I'm writing nd it's going well.. But I'm lazy, so im procrastinating it
.. I should complete it soon, find a publisher nd release it sooooOOOONNNN