Keiryuusan

Damn!! I haven’t been on here for so long! Since when did you change your Namen and since when is Wattpad such a shitty place like... WTF IS THIS?! 
          Btw. Haven’t heard from you in a long time! Hope you’re doing all right!

Hoe come every time I want to post something on Wattpad or just continue writing a chapter I'm usually already on Wattpad reading something and then leave the app only to go back in and be like "wait, I was reading. I'm dumb, aren't I"
          
          Also, thanks to my kid I started designing? Drawing? Making? Sigils and it's the coolest thing ahhh

Hey there
          It's been a while, eh?
          Apologies, my mental state has been pretty bad lately. And even though I find myself forcing my body to stay awake despite the fact that it needs the rest I cannot find the motivation to write anything and it honestly kills me. 
          Or, well, write something positive. But hey, no one wants to read depressive shit so I won't bother writing it down in the first place. 
          
          Anyways, I hope y'all are okay
          I might post a few drawings soon (as I promised to Eu-san quite a while ago)
          Or a chapter about K and her boys. Because it is time I actually introduce them and why they even joined K's little messed up family. And why Lucifer and Satan are two different people. 
          
          But until then I won't actively be on anywhere. So @ all those I chat with on WhatsApp: I have turned my notifications off and won't be back till I get better (unless it's for school stuff, I guess). I'd apologize again, but I usually just ruin everything (especially friendships) when j chat with people when I'm like this
          
          Stay safe, mortals
          (or I will murder you personally)
          Not that I actually care about most of humanity, but eh, whatever. You're reading this for some reason, so now you can stay safe for the same, I guess
          
          Kuro

«Don't expect me for our midnight snack meeting today, or breakfast tomorrow or even lunch. Don't expect me to show up in a week just in time for dinner. I won't be there in thirteen days, weeks, months, years. I will not return. So don't wait for me. 
          Don't beg, for I won't hear you. Don't cry, for I won't be able to wipe them away. Forget about me and live on, for I have left this world on my own will. 
          Maybe you will someday read a story that reminds you of me, one that I always spoke of, with a new character suddenly showing up and wreaking havoc. I chose to live on in another place, for I could no longer deal with the boredom here. 
          I was lost more often in my mind than I was finding myself in the real world. Now I have finally found a way to indefinitely live in a world that was made for me, even if the creator didn't know that when they created their own little universe. 
          So don't mourn my death, for I will continue living. Not here, not somewhere I will be able to see and hold you. But I'm living, if not in this world, then maybe at least in your heart. And I promise you that that is where I will stay. Until the day you forget about me, when I am no more than a whisper so silent you can't make out the words I'm saying. 
          It will always be the same seven words, never changing. 
          "Thank you for everything. I love you."»
          
          — I just saw a post where you could choose between three pills. One that allows you to rewatch/read something like you've never read/seen it before, one that allows you to "make" books after a series ended and one that allows you to go to any fictional world
          And then I just kinda started writing and this got dramatic af real fast XD

Today I wrote over a thousand fucking words
          For a story I suddenly had to continue, and I still don't know where the sudden motivation came from XD
          It's my How to train your Dragon fan fiction that I've been planning on writing for quite a while now XD
          I will probably publish the first chapter as a "yo, do you want to read this or not?" chapter
          Like, I'm going to write it either way, but y'know XD 
          I'm going back to writing now, not that the motivation suddenly decides to fuck off lol

Goddamnit
          I really do want to post another chapter for pandæ as soon as possible, probably a diary like entry with adventures from school and stuff, maybe some happy personal stuff 
          But honestly? I haven't been happy, like, truly happy, in such a long time
          I'm thinking about just ending everything at least 10 times a day, more than that, actually, a LOT more than that. 
          And I just can't and I feel like my few existing dreams just disappear further and further away into a place where I can't follow. 
          And I really don't want to bring y'all down with me. 
          So I don't know when I will be able to post something, but I'm trying
          Hope y'all are well~
          
          K

Hello, mortals~
          How are ya? XD
          I'm really just here to tell you to follow Jo's and my new collab-account called @KURjOsHELL
          Its where we'll publish our fairy tales for now, though we will probably have another project after that. 
          So if you're interested follow us and be excited for fucked up stories XD
          I'm still working on the first fairy tale, Snow White, but I should be finished soon…ish
          Anyways, that's pretty much it XD
          See ya there~

Do you ever, like, stand in front of a mirror cuz it's just in front of you and stare at yourself for a few moments thinking literally nothing
          And for some reason the urge to rip your heart out gets stronger with every passing second 
          And you just really want to hurt yourself?
          No?
          Kay then, ignore me
          I said nothing

I really do wonder how I should be able to survive a whole fucking year when I feel dead since the beginning of it lol
          Anyways, happy early/belated new year and stuff, let's try not to die and yeah
          That's it
          Stay safe, I guess 
          ~ K
          

Yeah, so, about that update-
          I'm giving my best
          I just hope I'll be able to upload it early enough-
          Also, I will probably add a few drawings after I published it cuz I don't have enough time to do both at the same time lol
          And
          It's hella weird to introduce your characters already and try not to spoiler too much/anything XD