Ash

retr0ne's not gone

well, retr0ne's gone. yay.

hiii!

Lie to me,
          
          Cry to me,
          
          Lie down
          
          And plead.
          
          
          
          Plead for mercy.
          
          Plead for peace.
          
          Plead for anger.
          
          For your sweet release.
          
          
          
          Why do you make me furious.
          
          Why, aren't you curious?
          
          Take a seat,
          
          See that meal? Eat.
          
          
          
          I don't care.
          
          Don't say I don't share.
          
          I'll let you listen.
          
          Or are you not even there.
          
          
          
          You never pay attention.
          
          Last bill you were 10 days late.
          
          It doesn't matter.
          
          Eat, lick your God damn plate.
          
          
          
          I slave away.
          
          Night and day.
          
          Working to feed your hunger.
          
          Now listen, for you are not but blubber.
          
          
          
          I know you hear me.
          
          I know you see me.
          
          Listen when I talk,
          
          Look at me when I'm speaking.
          
          
          
          Here's your main course.
          
          Enjoy the damn meal.
          
          
          
          Hear me,
          
          Look me I'm the eyeball.
          
          I'm tired of the stifle.
          
          Listen or stare down the rifle.
          
          
          
          You may begin your meal.
          
          Under one condition.
          
          You sign on the deal.
          
          A grand inquisition.
          
          
          
          You make me hungry.
          
          I will eat.
          
          It's my damn turn.
          
          Pass the beef.
          
          
          
          Show me your thoughts.
          
          Tell me how you feel.
          
          You are so stupid.
          
          So what do you get from the deal.
          
          
          
          You want safety.
          
          You want to be happy.
          
          You want clarity.
          
          Why not captivity?
          
          
          
          You locked my heart.
          
          My soul.
          
          Me means to let go.
          
          
          
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          Fall fit to my rage.
          
          And cry in this birds cage.
          
          See my wrath.
          
          Feel it, and engage.
          
          
          
          This battle will be fierce,
          
          I assure you that.
          
          But what will you win?
          
          I'm the embodiment of wrath.
          
          praying retr0 doesnt leave.

I miss fallon. I could never say it out loud but she just reached 16. I sometimes think maybe Rose and Millie are gone too. Like dead gone. But then I think they maybe left to move on. To try and not to mourn Fallon too much. Me telling retr0 not to leave is selfish. Is it though? Idk.

always alive and never idk good at it

life.. you know when you think about it, it’s kind of a sad thing. You don’t get a choice, it’s a lot that’s handed to you.A unique situation, a space in time and in the world that only you will ever occupy. It may be the best lot available, it may be the worst.. who cares? What does it matter?
          
          
          
          Life is like being forced to eat a bowl of something unappetizing when you aren’t hungry. The bowl is placed in front of you and everyone’s telling you to eat. You don’t want to eat, you didn’t choose this.. and still everyone’s telling you how awesome and delicious this dish, and yet you could care less. You’re just tired of being told you should be enjoying something, when it isn’t fun for you at all.
          
          [not my original thoughts.]

I kinda removed sf from my bio-

I need ideas for a theme  what the hell am I doing- I have like 16 followers lol

We are all born so beautiful,
          The greatest tragedy is being convinced we are not