Kellythevampire

Is it bad that when something causes me panic and anxiety, I ignore it?

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Kellythevampire

Left wide awake at 1 in the morning with my anxiety inducing thoughts and I don't know what to do...
          
          Should I leave college after this semester for a year or so... Or should I stick through for the remaining 2 or so years I have left?
          
          College has really been affecting my mental health but I know living in the real world will as well... I don't want to work in a grocery store or gas station for the rest of my life, but I also don't think I will be able to get a job as a photographer like I've dreamed of. They are asking for experience that I don't have, ideas that I can't come up with, social skills that I can't accomplish, and materials I can't afford.
          
          Not to mention how I feel completely detached from the world since I was a kid, which really affects my thought process on all of these things, believe it or not. I just... I just don't know what to do or think anymore...
          
          My friends say find a man, settle down, and be a stay at home mom. But I don't want kids, don't like kids. And I don't want to settle down just yet just to sit around and do nothing! I don't want to take the easy way out and be lazy for the rest of my life! But I don't know what I want to do with the rest of my life anymore...

Kellythevampire

So my University decided to close campus for 6 days and then start classes back up but online instead. I am an art major taking Sculpting I so I don't really know how this is going to work...
          
          Hopefully nothing too serious happens, and that the virus doesn't get to my friends and family or others. Y'all stay safe and wash/disinfect your hands and surroundings on a constant!
          
          Hope everyone is doing okay and isn't getting the virus! Though most healthy young teens to young adults are safe as just the "carriers" of the virus, infecting the elderly, babies, mad people with auto-immune disorder (like me) [hehehe...]
          
          Keep clean, healthy, and safe y'all!
          
          -Kelly

Kellythevampire

this message may be offensive 
Honestly creeped out and uncomfortable right now. I was hanging out with my irl guy friend when I decided to joke around and ask the "Magic 8 Ball" if he was a "gay man in disguise". Because I know he's straight and we joke around like that a lot, so I thought it would be okay even though my other guy friend wasn't with us... (Mind you that we are currently alone in this situation)
          
          His comeback statement to the ball saying "signs point to yes" was, and I quote, "I am STRAIGHTER than straight and I can SHOW you!"
          
          ... WHAT THE FUCK MAN?! YOU KNOW I'M ASEXUAL AND YET YOU BLATANTLY MAKE THIS STATEMENT TO ME WHEN ITS JUST US TWO AND I HAVE TO GET A RIDE HOME FROM YOU?!?! I don't understand why people are like this. That was yesterday and I was so uncomfortable to hand out with him again today with my other guy friend, who by the way, doesn't know this took place. 
          
          
          
          Sorry for the rant...

Kellythevampire

I really think I screwed up on my project... My professor said to either paint my sculpture black and white monochrome or color, but I don't remember if he said only one color or however many we wanted.
          
          I started to paint it with black block outline, using multiple colors, but now I am second guessing myself and it's really killing me! My anxiety is going through the roof and I don't have anyone to ask because it is almost 1AM...