Kenzlynnbee

Honestly I’m a little upset and really sad about something that happened today and yesterday. So yesterday, the boys in my gym class were constantly making fun of me and laughing, and today 3 girls in my gym class, lets just name them MB, CC, RW, were laughing and telling jokes, some I could hear. I don’t understand why though. It’s kinda upsets me 

When your trying to update. I will get there I promise!!!!! 

Happy New Year! I’m so happy to have made it to the new decade. Honestly this decade was pure shit, except for the few things. This decade was probably the hardest thing for me as to I wanted to die in 2017-2018, was massively depressed, and crying every night, and hating myself. But at this point I have amazing friends who stuck by me, and a loving pet and mom, and I have never loved myself more than I have in the past, even though I still look like a little rat. I’ve never been happier. Happy 2020! 

I just found out my freaking eye is swollen and purple, might have a black eye (I sleep walk and sleep talk) 

Low key really wanna boyfriend ;-; feeling lonely 

Hey guys! I made a new account for all the books that aren’t fan fiction. The account name is @MLynnGordon2004 
          Please follow it and thank you! 

I’m sorry too

I sometimes wonder why people leave me. Am I not good enough? Am I not there for them? Am I just a bad person? Do I not put in enough effort to be their friend? Am I not pretty enough? Am I not nice? Or maybe I’m just meant to be alone. Don’t know why I’m thinking this, maybe just old memories 

You know that feeling, when you feel like no one cares or loves you? When you are so depressed and you are crying out for help, but no one gives a crap? When you feel like you are drowning, and everyone is looking down at you, with no emotion? That’s what I feel like right now. I just want to die right now. I am starving myself right now. I want to hang my self, cut or something. You all might think this is fake, but I assure you, it’s all real. If I go missing, would anyone look for me? 
          No. No one would. I am not loved and no one cares. You all probably think I’m an attention whore,  so if you have so hate for me, go ahead and share it, I don’t give a crap anymore, I’m broken, shattered. Just say it. 
          Goodbye. 

Yes you are, you are perfect.