Khaos

wowie i forgor i posted a bunch of crazy shit to my convo wall???? jfc i sure hope nobody cares about that bc i am simply too lazy to go thru and delete every single embarrassing thing i have ever posted. i think it shows growth of a person to be able to just look at allat and be like,,,,yeah i was absolutely cooked but i'm so much better now and it's even better now that i feel like i can breathe mentally about stuff lmao
          
          cheers to growing, maturing, healing and whatever else people on crunchy mom blogs say bahahahaha

looking back on my 18 year old self is kinda,,,,,yikes. psychosis is a scary and shitty thing and i hope that anybody who is experiencing it gets through it better than i did. i had psychosis from ages 18-21 just about and those years were like the worst years of my life and it progressively got worse when i was like 19-20 specifically due to lots of crazy things happening back to back and repressed memories haunting me. i hope anybody i interacted with during this time is thriving and well today, i really am sorry i subjected you to something like that even if it was something i couldn't control or prevent. i still live with a lot of guilt for what i've done during that time and idk how to say sorry and for people to actually understand i mean it and it's not some ploy or way to be shitty again. i'm speaking to the void right now but it feels good to get this off my chest. thanks for reading if you see this.

Guess I'll just die

I AM SAD SAD SAD SAD 

YOOOOO, THE CONTEST WINNERS ARE BEING POSTED TOMORROWWWWW. I HOPE I WIN OML, I SPENT SO MUCH TIME ON THE BOOK COVER I DREW. 

tyam for following me!!

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