looking back on my 18 year old self is kinda,,,,,yikes. psychosis is a scary and shitty thing and i hope that anybody who is experiencing it gets through it better than i did. i had psychosis from ages 18-21 just about and those years were like the worst years of my life and it progressively got worse when i was like 19-20 specifically due to lots of crazy things happening back to back and repressed memories haunting me. i hope anybody i interacted with during this time is thriving and well today, i really am sorry i subjected you to something like that even if it was something i couldn't control or prevent. i still live with a lot of guilt for what i've done during that time and idk how to say sorry and for people to actually understand i mean it and it's not some ploy or way to be shitty again. i'm speaking to the void right now but it feels good to get this off my chest. thanks for reading if you see this.
