Ronnie!

I haven’t been on here in so long , I literally just logged back in I’m gonna try and finish the story i still have on going. i don’t want to be one of those writers that never finishes a damn story

Happy new Year  Hope you doing alright! 

Happy Birthday dude! 

Hey guys.! I know it's been a while, thing's are just getting worse but i'm trying to not let it get to me. Wish I had written some drafts and stuff, but to distract myself i'm going to try and start writing again- i just need to reread what i wrote to catch up with my own ideas since it's been a while. And since school had just started I will be working on school as well- and maybe after writing Disease, my 2nd fanfic for king and diane maybe i'll write my own book or smth idk but yeah hopefully i'm back this time!

Pt 3.
          
          But just all this stuff going on is just the reason I havent been on to post anything and I apologize. Also some other things that I cannot get into since they're a bit more personal.
          
          ALSO SORRY IF THIS IS LIKE A WHOLE RANT OR SOMETHING IDK IF IT'D BE CONSIDERED A RANT OR JUST INFORMATIONAL BUT ITS A WHOLE BUNCH SORRY 
          
          BUT THIS IS JUST WHATS BEEN HAPPENING AND THIS IS ME JUST EXPLAINING IT 
          
          ALSO HOPE YOU GUYS ARE DOING WELL 
          
          I WILL TRY TO POST BUT DONT GET YOUR HOPES UP AND I APOLOGIZE FOR THAT 
          
          I WISH YOU GUYS THE BEST AND THANK YOU FOR ALL THE PATIENCE AND UNDERSTANDING IT DOES MEAN A LOT 
          <3

Pt 2.
          
          It all started in March, on the 18th I went to the hospital for it because it had taken in some concern. At first my parents didnt want to believe it for a while with them being the people they are but they kinda had no choice since they were as clueless and as confused as I was. I personally didnt know why my body kept moving a bunch and hated having the urge to make noises or say certain things as time went by and I still dislike it with a strong passion.
          
          After being at the hospital they gave me some time off school to relieve any stress and to relax. They told my mom to make a neurologist appointment and it took her a while to but she did. The neurologist perscribed meds that kinda work in a way but not really. I'm still on the meds and now am getting the worst migraines and headaches I've ever had and I think it either may be the medicine or just some other symptoms.
          
          And now my family kinda push It aside I'm told to be quite or to stop when I cant control what I'm doing my older sister goes on to say I have nothing and that theres nothing wrong with me and that I'm faking it? She then went to persuade some of my other siblings the same.
          
          But come the fu#* on- use common sense. Those of you who know me just the slightest bit would know I would never do such a thing. I myself have worked with kids with disabilities and other problems when I was in elementary school- those kids were amazing and I loved helping them, why would I fake a neurological disorder? MY ELEMNTARY BEST FRIEND WAS IN A FUC#*ING WHEELCHAIR FOR CRYING OUT LOUD! That's like mocking all of them, AND I'VE EVEN HAD BEEN TESTED BY DOCTORS AND A NEUROLOGIST LIKE WHAT? 
          

Pt 1.
          
          Uhm....
          
          I shouldve been keeping everyone updated on things but it's a mix of too personal and hard to get into so I'm going to explain my situation a bit.
          
          I also want to apologize for not giving any updates after January things have just gone downhill quite a lot..
          
          I've gotten tons of inspiration to write back in January and I had done some writing, though school kinda pushed a bunch of stressful bs on me :')
          
          I was in a situation with my parents due to them being strict it's hard to go and do certain things. With them not being supportive much and same with my siblings it hasnt been much help for my current situation. 
          
          As school got more irritating, frustrating, more difficult and stressful along with my surroundings and having tons of siblings I guess I pushed myself too much in overworking scared I might fail and ended up with some type of tic disorder.
          
          I've seen doctors of whom believe it was triggered by stress, anxiety and a couple other things. 
          Its believed it may be tourette's syndrome of which is A nervous system disorder involving repetitive movements or unwanted sounds.
          
          Tourette syndrome starts in childhood.
          And is usually genetic, the doctors believe I was born with it and it's now being triggered by the events going on in my life or the second option which is that it had developed on its own which is possible but has a very small chance of happening. 
          
          And now my symptoms of having it over the past couple months have grown. I've gotten more distant and isolate myself in my room away from my family, I've gotten these tics that just hurt my body, I've been recently getting really bad headaches and have been having trouble doing school because of it. It's hard to pay attention to write and even to read I have a tic where I stutter a bunch and it gets so frustrating because I just want to talk yknow?
          
          

*BUSTS DOWN YOUR DOORS*
          
          Hey guys! Ayo happy new yearsss!!!
          I know I'm late on that 
          I tHoUgHt ThEre wAs GONna Be A PArt Two tO 2020
          Anyways let me get to the point.
          One of my resolutions is to try and post more, update more stories and etc.
          Just one problemo
          Cant roleplay
          BeCaUsE fAmILY IsSuEs
          Ah yes the usual 
          *SCREECHES*
          YeAh I KnOw RiGhT?! 
          I wAnT to fRiGgIN RoLepLaY!!!!!
          But for now I'm going to stick with updating things then going on from there
          Other than that I hope everyone is doing fine and having a good day/night/afternoon because I have no damn clue whenever any of y'all are gonna read this
          
          *FIXES YOUR DOORS AND WALKS TF OUT *

Hey guys!!! Wanted to pop on to a moment and say thanks for the patience I know it's taking a while but im sure I'll be back soon. I hope anyways. To those of you who had wished me a happy birthday in the private messages a while back thanks I appreciate it :))) I also wanted to wish everyone a happy Thanksgiving and to remind everyone to have fun and just be thankful for everything you may have I'll try to post something for the occasion!

hope everything gets better for you! <3