𓆩 S@nn1 𓆪

Sigh.. the things I do for y'all. You better read my Twisted Wonderland fic if you haven't and to read the new chapter, I put TO MUCH effort into that shit.
          
          Two hours off of my life, over 2k words, and all of the time I could've spent eating something for breakfast.. (⁠╥⁠﹏⁠╥⁠)
          
          
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I changed my Vil Schoenheit fic to a Various! Twst fic cause I couldn't figure out how I wanted the Reader's relationship with the other Housewardens' to be, it also wouldn't necessarily make sense for only Vil to have a romantic relationship and not the others with the scenario's I have in mind.
          
          Like I've stated, half of what will be in the fic will be what was in the game and the other half will be me being silly and making up things as I go cause I like it crazy.. it'll also get me farther if I put extra stuff in!
          
          Lol, I don't have school tomorrow because of Senior testing so I'll try to get a chapter out tomorrow.. although I do still have work online since it'll technically be an E-learning day for me so it'll be published a lil later than expected.
          
          
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I might lowk take a month off from here, writing wise. I'm genuinely tired of focusing on ONE thing for too long which is why I have taken down and haven't continued most of my books in a long while.
          
          Of course, there are times where I genuinely do have a long fixation on a certain fandom and geek out so much so that I make A LOT of chapters based off of the one thing. Then there are times where I barely make it past three chapters before abruptly moving onto another fandom, it's just how I am.
          
          I'm making this half awake btw, so don't mine me. I don't have school Tuesday so I'll try to publish my second chapter (technically first since I'm starting from zero) on my Vil Schoenheit fic that day
          
          If I make longer chapter than usual it's because I got a little too into it and didn't want to stop the chapter I was on just to put it onto another one, so there might be some chapters 2k words longs. (Unheard of, ik.)
          
          
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Say gex is kewl. Erm.. idk, I somehow managed to get my OLDEST acc back cause it was connected to my school Google acc for some reason?
          
          Idk, it's weird, but at least I know it's there and how to get on. Don't ask why I'm on Wattpad on my Chromebook.. I'm reading Twisted Wonderland fics cause I got bored and realized I could do that.
          
          
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Question: Should I make [Name] and Scott in my fic viciously kiss next chapter, or just in general? I haven't made them ACTUALLY affectionate outside of hugging and manipulating each other, so I kinda feel like I'm taking away a lot from y'all by not giving fan service and making them more romantic and stuff.
          
          Question 2: Actually, this isn't really a question, it's a mix of a question and a comment. I've noticed a lot of people have been reading and voting and stuff, but I don't really like any of the fandom's as much as before or they aren't continued anymore. I'm actually REALLY interested in Twisted Wonderland now, and I'm considering on making a fic on it but I don't know much of what happens in the actual game. I have the game downloaded and have been playing it lately, so I guess I'll publish as I play through the game.
          
          
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Tw: Venting, cursing, more venting
          
          
          
          
          
          I'm so fucking tired, I'm depressed (like, actually depressed), I can't stop myself from falling asleep as soon as I lay on my bed even after sleeping most of the time, and I'm just so fucking tired of everything.
          
          I barely like doing anything anymore except for talking with my friends and making chapter for y'all, but even then I don't want to do anything and lose so much energy from doing even that smallest of things. Like right now, I'm trying so hard not to fall asleep while making this..
          
          I'm stressed, my hairs falling out because of it, I'm heavily self conscious, have severe body dysmorphia, I feel constantly ill, I often worry too much especially about whether I can take care of myself properly in moments like these, and I'm always so FUCKING hungry no matter how much or often I eat.
          
          I hate how skinny I am and how I don't have as much fat on my body as I want to have, I hate that I'm female, not because I'm trans or anything (no offense) but because I genuinely would rather being referred to by He/They pronouns and being masculine without having to hide wanting to be a male and wanting to have more masculine pronouns from most of my family.
          
          I'm glad I have my mom and friends to talk to but that only gets you so far, I font feel like therapy would do much for me and I don't have the money for it, I can't take pills either because I can't even place them on my tongue before throwing everything I ate up immediately. I hate how I'm constantly starving even after eating more than average.
          
          On a light note, I should get a chapter out soon. There's a reason why I kin Vil and Azul from Twisted Wonderland. And why I often do what I do on here because it helps me disassociate with reality for a minute so I can recover from whatever I'm dealing with IRL that has me stressed TF out.
          
          Thanks for listening.
          
          
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I forgot to say happy birthday to my little octo boi, Azul Ashengrotto on the 24th.. (it's the 25th for me now)
          
          I'm so disappointed in myself, I've been playing the game almost all day (besides while I was at school) while doing homework!
          
          
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I'm not really going to have a schedule anymore or try to make myself a schedule with all of the shit that's going on, especially at school so I don't get overworked or burnt out.
          
          I'll publish whenever I can get time to or whenever I'm readily available so please don't rush me to do things after this.
          
          
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Poppy Playtime chapter 5 is CRAZY btw, been watching a BUNCH of playthroughs since it came out!
          
          Ik this is weird, but.. I'm CRACKING the Prototype! Bro, the hips on that thang is WILD, LIKE, WHAT??!!
          
          
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Do you guys like a toxic and manipulative couple that complement each other so well to the point they continuously manipulate one another, and act like their relationship is a healthy one despite what others say?? Well I sure hope you do (in the fictional way, not IRL), because that's what you're getting from me in the new chapter I'll publish in like.. an hour or two depending on how I'm feeling.
          
          I currently have my period, but I just got done with finishing the chapter. I do have to say that I did sadly have to scrap the Valentine's day idea because I was frustrated with myself and because of a bunch of tests I had this week, I couldn't handle the stress and just scrapped the entire idea of the Valentine's day one shot.
          
          I don't know how relationships function romantically, at least not entirely due to only being in less than five relationships before and because of my lack of interest in any of the sort with real people due to being HEAVILY Asexual. Although I do have romantic feelings or crushes on fictional characters, it's just fictional characters that I can imagine myself being with, so I'm sorry if I poorly represented a toxic relationship.
          
          I don't know what one looks like, or how it's experienced or even how a normal one is due to how lacking I am in that field, do forgive me if I represented any relationship poorly!
          
          My bad for yapping..
          
          
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