Kiku_6037

Hello again!
          	
          	It's been a while, but I hope you are all well! First, for everyone who's worried: no, I won't be discontinuing the story. Unfortunately though, I do have to make some adjustments to certain chapters because of wattpads upcoming changes.
          	
          	1: I'm going to remove chapters 10 and 11 and replace them with a quick summary or bullet points for the readers who either find the story here or don't want to read anywhere else. It's not a great solution, but given the broadness of their guidelines I've decided that it is safer to just replace them entirely before the story gets taken down in case I missed a scene they didn't like.
          	
          	2: I'm going to remove a scene in chapter 26 and replace it with an introductory sequence. This one shouldn't impede the reading experience too much.
          	
          	3: Chapters 10, 11, 26 and any upcoming ones will be marked with a [Censored] to let readers know that they were changed and don't reflect their original intent.
          	
          	The remaining chapters should be fine, so I'll be leaving them as they are. If the story gets taken down regardless, then there's nothing I can do.
          	
          	Given these circumstances, I've decided to upload the story in their uncensored form on ff.net and ao3. It's available on the former (https://www.fanfiction.net/u/15510967/) and I will upload it on the latter as soon as I can register.
          	
          	Future chapters will be published simultaneously on all three platforms with the wattpad upload possibly censored, depending on the contents.
          	
          	Let's hope that the next notification from me will be a new chapter! 
          	
          	Take care and stay safe <3

Kiku_6037

@TskTskLamentable Hope I'm done cooking soon™
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TskTskLamentable

@Kiku_6037 Looking forward to what you're cookin chef.. although the thought of choosing that skank Chie over Sae-sensei is a little lamentable. (I haven't discounted the idea that he is framing Chie rather than Sae though...)
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Udys038

Have you watched the new anime adaptation yet? If so, what do you think about Kiryuuin Fuuka’s voice?
          
          I actually stopped my whole cycle of rereading your fic for a very while, to lock back into life, but Kiryuuin Fuuka in Checkmate is still one of those characters that never left.
          The way you wrote Fuuka stuck with me in a way the official version never really did(not in a weird way, trust)... at some point, Checkmate Fuuka just kind of overwrote the source material in my head.
          
          About the voice in adaption, I’m far from disappointed. If anything, it’s kind of unsettling how compelling it is, just not in the way I thought it would be. There’s something kinda seductive about it, in a way I can’t explain. It’s different from what I had in mind, but it’s kinda sticking with me.
          At this point I’m not even sure what her voice was supposed to be anymore, it’s like the one in my head, the one in my head when reading Checkmate version, and this one just collapsed into each other. 
          
          Quite a weird, almost funny so, experience, indeed.
          
          (though, just another loop of me checking back in per sometime, and larping as a stinky yapper, 
          hope you’ve been doing well lately)

Kiku_6037

@Udys038 It already has 4 seasons, so I suppose you are far from the only one who enjoys the anime. I have to admit that I'm a little jealous. Though, without season 1 I would have never read the light novel so it had its perks. 
            
            I tried season 2 but the animation was so atrocious that I couldn't. That fact + knowing how much season 1 skipped or glossed over already, it was a pretty easy decision to just leave it at that.
            
            As for Fuuka's voice, I think I get what you mean. The voice in my head and the one from the anime don't really align, but it definitely has a certain charm to it. It certainly sounds a little higher than expected.
            
            I hope you are doing better soon! Sometimes life just sucks a little, but we've all been there. It's definitely going to get better again.
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Udys038

@Kiku_6037 I get why people don’t like the adaptation, but I never really felt that way. I’ve rewatched it a lot, and honestly the characters still feel right to me, even if the visuals aren’t perfect.
            Though, I think the smaller, everyday moments still land, but that’s just me.
            
            Maybe because the version I built up from rereading over and over is already locked in my head. I just really love CotE in general, not even for the schemes, but for that oddly grounded, cozy atmosphere where there’s always something quietly unfolding, so the anime doesn’t overwrite it, it just adds a sense of space to those scenes, like seeing how things in my head actually play out.
            
            sounds like you’ve been doing decent, that's good to know
            can’t really say the same for myself lately
            but I appreciate that, genuinely
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Kiku_6037

@Udys038 Haven't watched anything past the first season. The anime was so bad that I didn't want to waste my time with it. I'll check out a scene with her once I'm home. Your description made me curious about Fuuka's voice at least.
            
            I've been doing quite decent. Hope you are doing well yourself!
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Primordial_Entity

I'm yet again rereading the fic and I really think it's a shame how it got deleted from wattpad. I can just imagine the funny comments like in Chapter 26: Endgame for parts like when Ichinose is like "oh poor Ayanokouji-kun! I can't imagine his suffering" (the situation where she tells him Chihiro was poisoned) and then there's just the "wow, they are so much softer than Kikyou's and Chiaki's..."  I already forgot what the comments were when I first read the fic...

Kiku_6037

@Primordial_Entity I think the top comment was "That motherfucker..." lmao
            
            I definitely agree though, it was a blast reading through the comments. Wished the inline comments were a feature on other fic sites as well.
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DiogoSilva977

Time flies, my friend.
          
          I recently went through my playlist and read some old fanfics I used to like. Surprisingly, I didn't like most of them. I wonder what my teenage self saw in those stories, LOL. I think I only managed to finish reading about 3. The most frustrating thing is that NONE of those fanfics are complete, and I have about 50 fanfics on my playlist, hahaha.
          
          The only one that maintained undeniable quality was yours; definitely a fan's love for Cote.
          
          Currently, I've started writing, and God, how difficult it is to write! It's completely unbelievable that you could write 3-hour chapters a week with such high quality. I couldn't even dream of doing that.

DiogoSilva977

@Kiku_6037 Speaking of which, I'm finishing reading one of the fanfics. Can you believe that the fanfic I'm reading predicted Shiro's existence? LOL I didn't believe it while reading it. Shiro is a girl Kiyotaka runs away with from the White Room.
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Kiku_6037

@DiogoSilva977 I think as a teen you just have way more time, so you try things without really considering if they are worth the investment. As you get older and start working, you begin to value your time more and weigh it against whatever you consider doing. 
            
            I've noticed myself how I stopped reading some manga, manwha or novels because I realized that they gave me nothing I really cared about. I just started them when I was bored and had nothing better to do and kept reading out of habit.
            
            Nice to hear that you started writing. 
            
            It's a really fulfilling hobby, but also one of the most time consuming ones. But it wouldn't be so satisfactory if it were easy. Practice won't let you down, especially in a creative hobby like this. People have different starting points, but nothing beats consistency and love for what you are writing. It causes you to put more effort into it, which in turn motivates you to keep improving. I'm sure if you want to get there, you certainly will sooner or later.
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Primordial_Entity

If you don't mind sharing, where do you work? The work load seems to be pretty intense. I can imagine that during your free time you would rather relax than write, but I am obviously always hoping for an update. Are there any hobbies you pursue in your free time?

Kiku_6037

@Primordial_Entity I'm in IT. It is pretty intense, but it pays well, so I'm hoping to reduce the time I spend working someday and take it easier. As for hobbies, I hang out with friends, read a lot and play some games.
            
            Since it's getting warmer again, I'll be playing volleyball more often probably. Just helps relax to smack a ball around with a couple of friends lmao.
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kiyorisu_ayanon

I wonder why you deleted your fic; I was quite surprised to see that. I had heard a lot about "Checkmate Kouji," but when I finally decided to read it, I discovered that it had been deleted. Is there any chance you could upload it again?

Kiku_6037

@kiyorisu_ayanon I'm still committed, yes. Just have a lot on my plate, so I had to put it on the back burner. The story is already outlined, I just have to find the time to write it.
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pseudoforce

@kiyorisu_ayanon bumpad couldn’t handle this peak
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Primordial_Entity

I recently had my first college experiences and am getting ready to go to college. I started reading this fic in 8th grade I think, maybe my freshman year of highschool and now i am about to turn 18. I have moved around a lot of countries in my life so Im used to new starts, but it has never been like this. As a kid I never wished to grow older like a lot of others and even though i am not opposed to it, I find myself being driven into a career that is predictable, but still probably fun and profitable. I always wanted to go after my creativity, which is why I built a lot of worlds and have immersed myself in playing music, but it seems like I will follow this path that my parents had waved the idea of since I can remember. I dont know how to feel about it honestly, and whether or not it will be fulfilling. Point is, life is never what you expect it to be, but coming back and re-reading your fic is something that makes me pretty happy. Not gonna lie I haven't been expecting any new chapters and one thing I find with my favorite fits that I find even better than the original, is that they are somehow always left in a dissatisfaction way. I guess this is a testament as to how good it is, because it hooks you and keeps you guessing. Anyway the next chapter you make, if you are ever able to finish it, will likely be release by the time I am in college. Lowkey crazy.

Kiku_6037

@Primordial_Entity It's sadly just the way life works out. Only a handful of lucky people can really do whatever they want to and be happy without having to make sacrifices (work). I'd love to have enough money so I could just do what I want every day without having to waste 9-10 hours of my life working and another 8 or so sleeping. But you gotta earn money somehow.
            
            And yes, it's crazy how time flies. At one point it just starts and gets worse by the year.
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omeglesucksbaby

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I returned to Wattpad after almost 2 years. Got reminded of it because I was watching video essays calling the story trash and all. 
          
          So, I return. Cringe at my stories, check out your account, read through all the conversations here, and immediately get hit by a  wave of nostalgia that's painfully beautiful. 
          
          I turned 18 this year, I write screenplays and actual novels now that are much more my thing than writing fics on pre-existing characters ig. 
          
          So I had a question for you: I assume you're 20+ since you're doing jobs and what not, isn't it scary growing into a functioning adult and still being connected to the small world you once lived in through these things like Wattpad? I look back at my life and I've lived so much... Lived, loved, changed and yet all this silly shit I can't seem to let go of any of them....
          
          Sorry for spelling mistakes u might find, I'm writing on my tablet. 

Kiku_6037

@omeglesucksbaby Isn't that normal though?
            
            For fanfics, you can probably argue one way or the other, but original stories are always personal. They are shaped by your thoughts, feelings and the ideas you want to express, so of course they feel like a part of you. Much more so than any fanfic could, since you are mixing someone else's ideas with your own.
            
            I once read somewhere that writing a story and publishing it, feels like nurturing a child and sending it out into the world. I'm not sure how good the comparison is at face value, but I think I understand what that person tried to express.
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omeglesucksbaby

@Kiku_6037 You're much better than putting such thoughts to words than I am, perhaps it's because I've often turned to writing my thoughts out through other characters rather than my own words. 
            
            On the subject of writing, I've written and finished aroudn 3 novels, but that's an exxageration because one novel turned out to be soooooooo long, I'm talking 250+k words that I had to divide it to 4 parts, and even then it was horribly slow to write. 
            
            Which brings me to my next question, do you ever feel that your works often feel too personal to you? LIke I felt with this novel, it felt, and really was so personal to me that I almost don't ever want to publish it. As happens with most works, it deterioated my mental health, and I jokingly like to call it, the longets su-c-de note I'll ever write... Idk, weird.
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Kiku_6037

@omeglesucksbaby 
            
            Most beginnings are rough, writing is the same. What you wrote before shaped the how you write now, so it's normal to look back on it fondly. The nostalgia glasses are always pink, even if the writing was cringe, or unrefined.
            
            I'm happy to hear that you found something that works better for you than fanfics. Screenplays sound nice, but I'd probably struggle with that kind of writing myself. As for writing actual novels, I also tried a bit, though nothing I published. I wrote close to 600 pages while actively writing Checkmate. I kinda want to pick it back up, but I'm struggling to find the time for even my fanfic, much less an entire novel.
            
            As for your question, I don't think it's scary. 
            
            I mean, a bunch of strangers finding a common interest in a novel, writing fan stories, talking about them and how unhappy or happy  we were with some of the decisions in canon. That's just a nice way to spend time. And it is definitely worth remembering how much easier life was back then.
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Pika_pika_pichu

Well how about writing new fanfic?

Kiku_6037

@Pika_pika_pichu If I could have left it on wattpad, I would have, but that was not my decision to make. Publishing the story again would just end in it being deleted down the road. I wouldn't mind that, because re-uploading doesn't take that long, but they will ban my account after the third 'offense'.
            
            As for writing a new fic, I'm sorry that's not how I do things.
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Pika_pika_pichu

@Kiku_6037 ik but I say for Wattpad audience , which site you uploaded your checkmate fanfic is really troublesome  Sometime.
            Sometimes writers make another story even when 1st one didn't complete.
            
            
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ttawesomes

Is my man still alive?

Kiku_6037

@ttawesomes There should always be hope!
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ttawesomes

@ttawesomes With life there's hope of another chapter
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Kiku_6037

@ttawesomes Barely. 
            
            Jokes aside, yes.
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