silent r./ inactive.

Man I just woke up after multiple alarms and got my mother's signature for my examination then I suddenly saw the calendar--
          
          HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY BEAUTIFUL MOST BELOVED SAKURA HARUNO!
          
          Even if I can't continue Sasuke's arc in the anime and read SasuSaku fanfics at the moment, I love you. And people should really see you in a different light by now.
          
          I'll always cherish and keep you within the deepest part of my simping heart. (yo that rhymed!) Happy Birthday, once again!

this is really the last two sentence. why can't emojis be seen here, ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

wait. just as I was scrolling, I saw my...uh...venting. 
          
          
          
          so. just wanna say that I am fuu king gonna declare that even though I dream to have someone or wish to be married to someone, I WON'T BE IN A RELATIONSHIP!! 
          
          Like my attitude svkz, my anxiety svkz, and overthinking SVKZ so I swear. if I ever take this back in the future, just telling that you better find someone that could change the way you're owning every problem. like I...love you, my future self I guess so...like I just want you to be happy, contented, and regret-free on this lifetime...if you're ever gonna have another chance after you wasted this life on a digital and imaginary world you're secluding yourself 

First things first, I haven't watched anime in a while so I think...is it just me or the animation is really lame? I mean I know it's frame by frame but...ah?
          
          Also, the plot is quite the same but does every version of Sasuke Retsuden have to be different? I mean this is our only way to make the ants know that SS is and nothing but the TRUTH. So yeah maybe they're forced but, if they won't read the !CANON! novels, let's just show them "/canon-ly/" animated. 
          
          If I must say it's not bad but am still disappointed since it feels like they are rushing the arc...I mean WE ARE DEPRIVED OF SASUSAKU MOMENTS FOR SUCH A LONG TIME! The fact that it strayed from somewhere on the blank period (when Sarada was still a toddler) to somewhere after they have already met is...a sad thing for me. 
          
          I just hope they spend their budget, time and resources right. Or better yet- if Studio Pierrot still insists on changing their supposed dialogues, reactions, and arrangement- find a better one. If they can do that.
          
          We started watching Boruto for the continuation but we're recieving the end. The remainings of what we loved! And I don't want that. If they're gonna make a sequel then just entirely focus on dumb shizz, then don't call it a sequel! Just make another universe! It feels like they're clinging onto a universe that made them known that earned them money and fans...it doesn't feel right anymore. It's being a responsibility.
          
          . . .
          
          what am I typing? sorry my attention isn't here so my mind has been just sputtering things, making this utterly unorganized thoughts...
          
          FAREWELL THEN! LET'S WAIT ANOTHER SUNDAY FOR OUR QUEEN!! Wahhhhhhh she's really gorgeous...ok I'll fuu king shut my dann brain mouth...and hands...byeeeeuuu

ANYWAYS GOTTA CHECK THE STUPID BORUTO SHOW- I mean, he's not that stupid but more of a reflection of humanity in Kishimoto's eyes. ✨ALMOST✨ the same case with Sakura to be honest...(result of overthinking and talking to herself...being someone who always challenges herself to position herself in the other's perspective, the one she's arguing with, resulting on a- yet again- neutral perspective--- HAYSSSSSSUU) 
          
          /that's a lot of herself, selfish bi--/
          
          why did I even bother explaining myself? 
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          alright- ANYWAYS LET'S CHECK IT OUT IF STUpidDIO PEykRRIOT DID JUSTICE TO SASUSAKU FANDOM!! WILL THEY FINALLY ELEVATE THEIR REPUTATION juuuuuuuuust a bit TO LESSEN THE ANGER OF FANS BECAUSE OF THEIR "rather wonderful" CHANGES FROM THE ORIGINAL ART AND DIALOGUES??? 
          
          *in uncle roger's voice* 
          Let's see... LET'S SEE!?!

I'm getting close in having an in-law but my crazy ass can't initiate a proper convo and keeps replying shortly, looking away, and fiddling. Why? Well there's no particular emotion I'm really feeling. I'm neither extremely happy nor sad. It's more of a "Oh they're engaged? Okay." type of thing...But you know I keep getting ahead of the situation because first thing that was on my mind was "how am I gonna look on their wedding day" and the "I'm gonna be an auntie and have a niece." even though my sister's not preggo... I know I'll be terrible teacher to her kid if she ever make me help her on that department. Like how am I gonna interact???
          
          who cares...ugh. 
          
          THEY HAD JUST ANNOUNCED THEIR ENGAGEMENT AND YOU'RE ALREADY DEPICTING YOU'RE FUTURE NIECE WTF???

It's been a while since I've been here but I just gotta vent things out-
          
          I miss them too, my friends... I wish I could get over them...I just feel so sad remembering them while they're hanging out without me...I feel forgotten but here I am, debating whether I would still wish them a Happy Birthday and a Happy New Year... it's so draining and I can't do anything about it.
          
          Still though, being alone isn't a bad thing...I'm actually enjoying it despite the disadvantages...
          
          Procrastination, overthinking, and staying up too late, I feel so tired...
          
          I recently made my dream come true by being the top of our class even though I don't feel so contented 'cause I was always on section 1 when I couldn't achieve so I feel like I'm cheating...I don't feel that accomplished when my classmates worked harder while I rely on the persuasion of others to just do and pass my works even though it's late...pressure? More pressure??
          
          Ahhhhh I don't know. Don't wanna know. I wanna do a lot of things. Study another language, prepare for my planned track, find good schools after I graduate, start a small business I could earn with- that I am comfortable with... it's just that I guess I lack motivation? Do I lack someone? No.
          
          But I really am having this urges recently. I wanna hug or kiss someone I love. Just that I don't wanna be in a relationship. ahhhhhhhhhh...so annoying.
          
          I want to find someone????? hahaha why did I think of that? hmmmm....
          
          ALRIGHT MY HEAD IS EMPTY NOW!! Time to resume the fanfic 

It's literally 2 am and I'm still here...

I was rereading sasusaku time travel fics but then, somehow, Wattpad just had to mess with my library!! I mean, I know I've already read them way back the first year I've started to read here- EVEN SO, those books are just...there. AND THE CURRENT READING POSITION ISN'T EVEN AT THE END! 
          
          *sighs in frustration*

I fckin shy to look back on my comments- like they don't even make sense...