KimHyunmin7
Hey, I'm not how many of you guys are active because of how difficult its been to stay in contact here and also shifting interests but I have really been trying to retain my sanity with this spiral of right-wing psy-ops and propaganda. Something happened three weeks ago and I've been trying to put it up on reddit for help but all of my stuff keeps getting taken down so now I'm going to try asking you guys . I doubt i can fit everything on this acnouncment so please extend the post and read the whole thread from this onward
KimHyunmin7
I texted my brother a few days ago about it and he told me accept that she is the way she is and to be patient ant m wait for her to come around. no only did all of what three of them said feel like projection but the text my brother sent me was long didn't seem his style or speech pattern. On top of that he said if he isnt home when things like that happen he said to use ai as a 3rd man. the only somewhat decent older cousin i a=have said she things he did write it and to follow the advice. I also can't get a job because no one is helping me write my resume and something is always wring if use a checker. I do visit friends a lot more often so i don't rot away but i can't exactly stay with any of them because their situations aren't much better and one has only managed to land a part time job, another (who's genderfluid) has a homophobic dad who doesn't actually know who either of us are. and i don't know the other twos situations
KimHyunmin7
@KimHyunmin7 I also touched on how everyone is aware of the stuff I'm interested in but when they get me gifts if like blanket. they know i like anime but will get me merch of anime I've either never watched or don't like. The only way they get it right is if they take me to the store with them. they know I like tokyo ghoul, tbhk, kpop, jrock everything you guys know I like but when I leave them to do it on their own it's "how were we supposed to know" or "that's how everyone is when they give gifts" my dad insists on saying no one's bullying me and yet all this. Also I'm aware calling this bullying is a severe minimization but this is how the argument progressed. I generally don't yell at people unless they mess with me or my friends (also extended to classmates cuz i had a few really whack teachers in high school) and I'm not subjected to that much transphobia or assumed homophobia that doesn't come from them. At some point in that argument she said "when you see a girl on the street you can't be afraid to call her lesbian" which was insane because I didn't say anything that prompted that as an appropriate reaction.
KimHyunmin7
I had confronted my mom nearly three weeks ago about deadnaming and misgendering me even after she's known my name for like a year due too an argument had last December. She got defensive saying she's "entitled " to her own feelings which is agreeable. until you realize there's been more than three times we've had this same thing happen and she holds the roof over my head. I had told her I struggled responding to my name since I was little because it never felt like anyone was talking to me when they said it. Then skipped forward to 7th grade when i started to commit to figuring out my gender and and name. i told her these feelings had never changed I was just trying to find the words and she responded by pinning it on the creep on amino who was trying to blackmail me during that year. I kept looking into things myself and ending up land on non-binary and transmac and I've settled into that and don't feel like there's been a change. She responded by calling me unstable and saying i need therapy after flashing the mark on her stomach she got from the surgery to treat the stomach issue she's been having. Was i yelling at her yes but that's because she is persistent in not even attempting to say my name and misgendering me.
