Namshia~♡

Hi dear lovelies…
          	
          	This might be the last message I ever leave here on Wattpad — and it truly breaks me to write this.
          	
          	For the past two years, my life has been a rollercoaster of pain, pressure, and quiet battles. I kept going, telling myself it would get better. But lately… something inside me has collapsed. It feels like I'm standing at the edge, looking down, wondering how everything went so wrong. I am really feeling like I’ve lost everything — my peace, my hope, even my faith.
          	
          	Do you know what hurts the most? Being the eldest child. Carrying the weight of everyone’s expectations. And then watching myself fail — over and over again— while my family watches in silence, disappointment and tears in their eyes. I never thought life could be this cruel. Back in school, I had dreams. I had light. Now all I feel is darkness. Is this what we call growing up in life?
          	
          	And God… I don’t even trust Him anymore. I prayed. I begged. I cried myself to sleep more times than I can count. But nothing changed. If anything, things just got worse.
          	
          	To everyone who supported my books, who followed me, who left kind words… thank you. You gave me small moments of comfort when I needed it the most. You won't believe how much it makes me happy even if I get one vote or message from you all. Those moments were my happiest even though it was for a short time. I don’t know if or when I’ll come back. But if I do… I hope it's as someone stronger, someone who found the light I’ve been searching for.
          	
          	Please take care of yourselves. Hold on tightly to your peace. And if you’re hurting like I am… know that you're not alone, even if it feels like it.
          	
          	Love you all. ❤️