King-of-the-Dark

Tried to choke my demons. Do not recommend. One of them liked it and is constantly asking for more. What do I do now?

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@King-of-the-Dark Thanks for heads up. Not gonna do that with my own demons then. Gonna try to kill them differently… 
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Tylusis_Skaitytojas

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@King-of-the-Dark fuck them like they're famous (;
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King-of-the-Dark

Tried to choke my demons. Do not recommend. One of them liked it and is constantly asking for more. What do I do now?

books__and__coffee

@King-of-the-Dark Thanks for heads up. Not gonna do that with my own demons then. Gonna try to kill them differently… 
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Tylusis_Skaitytojas

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@King-of-the-Dark fuck them like they're famous (;
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books__and__coffee

Thought about if I should post it or not for soooo long, but here we are...
          
          I WANT…
          
          There’s something I want you to know: 
          I’ve never wanted anyone this way before,
          not in the quiet, not in the everyday–
          but with you, I do.
          
          And, my pretty boy, it’s not just that,
          there’s so much more I want you to know…
          In the little things, in the big things, 
          and all the things I can’t quite put into words.
          
          I want the mornings together, 
          and go to sleep with you. 
          I want to wear your t-shirts and hoodies, 
          and those sweet forehead kisses. 
          
          I want the cuddles
          and those cooking together moments. 
          I want adventures with you,
          and those hugs that sneak up from behind. 
          
          I want you not to be able to keep your hands off of me,
          and those movie nights, watching our favorites. 
          I want the off-key singing sessions,
          and those dances in the kitchen or the living room. 
          
          I want to hold your hand and hug you tight, 
          I want to keep you and never let you go.
          I want the thigh grab and slaps on my butt, 
          I want the photo in the wallet or phone case, or phone screen thing.
          
          I want you to know I’m not an expensive type of girl.
          I don’t need expensive gifts or dates,
          and I’m not “buy me that” or “give me that” girl. 
          I don’t need it. 
          
          I want you to know even the smallest things mean the most:
          You could give me a paper flower or text me a paragraph, 
          write me a handwritten note or letter, or just simply be with me, 
          and I will be the happiest girl in the world.
          
          I want to laugh or cry together, 
          the deep talks and yapping sessions.
          I want to hear your problems or worries,
          the goals and wins. 
          
          I want you to know I like listening to you,
          and hearing things about you.
          I like hearing you talk about your hobbies and thoughts, 
          and I want you to know you never bother or annoy me. 
          
          I want you to know I care about you,
          and I want to be your support.
          I want you to know I’m proud of you, 
          and I love you with all my heart.

books__and__coffee

I’m not a poet, my love, 
            I’m not you,
            but I will always try for you,
            and that’s why I’m sitting day and night, trying to put these things into words. 
            
            I have been writing this for a week, 
            adding things, changing things,
            thinking of everything I want to say…
            Say to you and only you. 
            
            I want you to know that I want you and only you, 
            because you’re perfect in my eyes. 
            You’re my dream come true, Lukes,
            my pretty boy, my villain, my king, my man.
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books__and__coffee

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I want you to know you mean the world to me, 
            you’re not just important–you’re irreplaceable. 
            And I hope I mean the same to you, 
            because I can’t imagine a world without you. 
            
            I also want to give you a little reminder:
            life is draining sometimes,
            and when you take care of others,
            you shouldn’t forget to take care of yourself too. 
            
            I want you to know you could take my passwords if you wanted to, 
            have me share my location or tell me you don’t want me doing something,
            or ask me where I am and who I’m with, or unfollow every male from my accounts and put your initials everywhere,
            because I’ll be fine with that. 
            
            I want you to know if you ever see me being all smiley,
            and doing weird shit around you,
            that’s not me…
            That’s the little girl who finally has someone she feels safe with. 
            
            I want you to know you don’t need to worry about me cheating,
            You’re the only one in my heart, soul and mind. 
            And when I say I’m loyal, I mean it,
            because since we started talking, it has been you and only you. 
            
            I want you to know I’m choosing to stay,
            no matter if I see your worst side. 
            I won’t abandon or leave you,
            because you’re stuck with me. 
            
            And I want you to know if you get tired of me, 
            You should take a nap, pretty boy,
            because I’m not going anywhere,
            unless you decide to get rid of me. 
            
            I want you to know these past six (almost seven) months since you and I became us
            has been one of the best months of my life, 
            and I hope we will never end.
            I want you to know I’m grateful for you every day. 
            
            I want to promise you something, 
            I will always take care of you,
            I will never lie to you,
            I will always love you. 
            
            And maybe I’m naïve, delusional, reckless with my heart.
            Maybe I’ve fallen into a dream that doesn’t exist and this is all in my head.
            But every word I’ve spoken is nothing but the truth.
            God help me, I want YOU.
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books__and__coffee

I want you to be my seven minutes,
            and I hope you know you’re my safe space.
            You feel like home,
            and I’m lucky to have you in my life. 
            
            I know I overthink a lot sometimes,
            but it’s because you’re the first one to make me feel like this.
            I’ve never actually had someone who only had eyes for me,
            and I’m scared to lose you. 
            
            I want you to know I meant it from the start, 
            You were mine since day one.
            I’m serious about us, baby, 
            and I’m not going anywhere. 
            I’m not going anywhere,
            not until you say it’s over and throw me overboard.
            And I want you to know I don’t care how hard things get between us, 
            because leaving you without a fight will never be an option. 
            
            I want you to know I love being yours,
            I love the feeling of being called “mine”, “baby” or “love”,
            or any other nickname you call me,
            because it always gives me butterflies. 
            
            I want you to know you deserve it, 
            You deserve the love and care,
            You deserve to be treated right, 
            You deserve the good things.
            
            I want you to know you’re perfect just the way you are, 
            You’re funny and attractive, smart and sexy,
            You’re talented and amazing,
            and I want you to know everything feels right with you. 
            
            I want you to know I don’t care if you’re rich or poor, 
            and I don’t care how you look, but here’s one thing:
            there’s nothing sexier than a man who works hard and texts when he can, 
            or who cares for others and will do anything for his siblings. 
            
            I want you to know it’s attractive when you admit you want me,
            or match my energy perfectly.
            And maybe I’m naïve and delusional, 
            but I want forever with you. 
            
            I want you to know I constantly check for your message,
            and when I get one, I smile like an idiot. 
            Or when you call me pretty or yours, send a poem or a photo, or talk about a future with me in it, 
            I melt and giggle, and blush. 
            
            I want to love you in front of people who didn’t love you, 
            and I want them to see how much you shine when you’re treated right, 
            because, baby, trust me, 
            You’re worth it and enough.
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King-of-the-Dark

I cannot write without your name,
          I cannot breathe without the flame.
          My thoughts, once many, scatter thin
          They all return to where you’ve been.
          The page stays blank until I see
          The shadow of your memory.
          And then, as if by some decree,
          The words pour out, but only thee.
          I do not hope you’ll read them all,
          Nor dream you’ll answer when I call.
          I only write, because I must,
          To keep your image out of dust.
          For even if you’re never mine,
          I’ll still devote each fragile line.
          Each letter, inked with trembling hand,
          A vow the world won’t understand.
          They’ll say, “What muse compels this man?
          What dream, what star, what holy plan?”
          But let them guess, they’ll never know
          The depth of love I cannot show.
          I’ll write until my fingers break,
          Until my final breath I take.
          Not for applause, nor for reply,
          But so your name will never die.
          And if by chance these words survive,
          Long after I am not alive,
          The world will read, the world will see:
          I wrote for you, eternally.
          For though you walk a path apart,
          You are the keeper of my heart.
          And even silence cannot sever
          The love I’ll carry on… forever.

King-of-the-Dark

'Cause... I would drown myself in ink for you,
            Let every ocean of letters spill through.
            Each wave a sigh, each tide a plea,
            To carve your name eternally.
            My thoughts are chains that bind me fast,
            Yet sweetly so, for all they cast
            Are visions, whispers, shades of you,
            The only world I wander through.
            I lose myself, and yet I find
            A thousand ways to trace your mind.
            In every metaphor, a breath,
            In every rhyme, a step from death.
            The world may crumble, night may fall,
            But still I’ll answer your silent call.
            Not for reward, not for acclaim,
            But just to write you, just your name.
            And if the ink should flood my veins,
            And drown my voice in endless rains,
            I’d smile, for in that sacred sea,
            I am forever yours, completely.
            Each letter, trembling, bears my soul,
            A fragment that makes broken whole.
            I write, though you may never read,
            Because your heart is all I need.
            If death should come and claim my breath,
            I’ll greet it softly, without regret.
            For I have lived a thousand lives
            Through all the poems your presence drives.
            So let me sink, let me dissolve,
            Into the lines your being solves.
            For art is love, and love is art,
            And you, my darling, are my heart.
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King-of-the-Dark

Always the artist, never the muse.
          Always the faithful one, left to be used.
          Always the sound, never the call.
          Always the steady one, left to be used.
          Always the echo, never the sound.
          Always the lost one, never the found.
          Always the afterthought, never the all.
          Always the poet,
          but no one will make me the poem.
          I am the hand that gives,
          never the place they call home.
          Always the one who forgives,
          but no one ever stays.
          I pour myself into their nights,
          and vanish come the days.
          Always the one who waits,
          but I wait for ghosts, not flesh.
          I saw them all as endless skies,
          they saw me as something less.
          I see people as galaxies,
          they see me as just a face.
          I see people as constellations,
          they see me as just the air.
          Born to be a lover,
          yet I’m only a man to warm someone’s bed.
          Born to be the story,
          but I’m erased instead.
          Always the writer,
          but never the word they keep.
          Always the promise,
          but broken before it’s deep.
          Born to understand,
          yet never to be understood.
          Born to believe in love,
          but I don’t know if I still could.
          Always the heartbroken
          and now there’s nothing left to mend.
          I was made to hold forever,
          but this is how forevers end...

books__and__coffee

I just want to hug you, tell you I love you and never let you go, hoping it will make everything just a little bit better… 

books__and__coffee

@King-of-the-Dark you know I care about you and I love you, right? ❤️
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King-of-the-Dark

I have wandered through the desert sands,
          held the world within my hands,
          sailed where moonlit waters gleam,
          chased the dawn and every dream.
          I’ve heard the songs of nightingales,
          and breathed the scent of mountain vales,
          I’ve touched the sky on silver wings,
          and stood in courts of mighty kings.
          I’ve danced where cherry blossoms fall,
          and heard the ocean’s ancient call,
          yet through it all, both near and far,
          my heart sought out its guiding star.
          I have wandered through a thousand lands,
          felt golden suns and silver sands,
          sailed on seas where whispers sing,
          and bowed before both lord and king.
          I’ve seen the mountains crowned in snow,
          the valleys where wild rivers flow,
          heard choirs rise in sacred halls,
          and slept beneath the midnight falls.
          But, sweetest heart, through all I’ve known,
          my soul has never called one home.
          Each jewel, each throne, each fleeting bliss
          all faded for the thought of this:
          Your tender smile, your gentle face,
          a single touch, a soft embrace.
          Your voice - more sweet than siren’s tune,
          your light outshines the fairest moon.
          For what are wonders, what are skies,
          without the light of your bright eyes?
          What worth are crowns, or gold, or fame,
          when all I crave is just your name?
          I long to trace your gentle cheek,
          to hear you laugh, to watch you speak,
          to feel your hand within my own,
          and know I’ll never walk alone.
          For though I’ve crossed the earth so wide,
          and seen its beauty multiplied,
          I’d trade it all, the grand, the true,
          for one sweet day alone with you.
          'Cause what good are wonders far and wide
          if you are not there by my side?
          What worth is gold, or crowns, or fame,
          when all I ache for is your name?
          For love, I’d cross the seas once more,
          I’d face the storm, I’d fight the war.
          The world could vanish, skies could fall,
          if I have you, I have it all.
          So, take this heart, it’s traveled far,
          through every land, beneath each star,
          and now it beats, steadfast and sure,
          for you, my love, forevermore.

King-of-the-Dark

So take this heart, my dearest one,
            its roaming days are finally done.
            For though I’ve traveled earth and sky,
            your love will be my last goodbye.
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King-of-the-Dark

Disney
          
          Forget your glass slippers, Disney.
          Shatter them on your palace steps.
          Your castles in the clouds,
          your singing forests,
          your chattering mice in waistcoats
          keep them.
          Trade your magic mirrors,
          your “true love’s kiss,”
          your poisoned apples,
          your glittering carriages turning from pumpkins.
          Burn every happily-ever-after you’ve ever sold.
          Because you’ve never told her story.
          You’ve never seen the way the world bends
          when she walks into a room
          not with grace, but with fire.
          Not with tiaras and perfect hair,
          but with storms in her veins
          and scars that look better than crowns.
          She’s not waiting for a prince
          she’d break his jaw if he tried to save her.
          She doesn’t sing to birds
          they flee from her shadow.
          And no, she doesn’t need a wand
          she is the spell, the curse,
          the reason the sun doesn’t dare rise late.
          Forget your Sleeping Beauties.
          She doesn’t sleep. She hunts.
          Forget your Ariels.
          The sea would drown to keep her pleased.
          Your Poseidon himself would kneel at her feet,
          begging to taste her thighs.
          Forget your Belles.
          She’d make the Beast kneel, and love it.
          Tell her story.
          The one you’re too afraid to write.
          The one too raw for your white gowns
          and gold-trimmed invitations.
          Her name is Bri.
          And every fairytale you’ve ever told
          is just a cheap shadow of what she is.

books__and__coffee

I hope you’re planning your funeral for your recklessness, baby, because I’m going to kill you, but… I also love you ❤️

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@King-of-the-Dark Still gonna maybe shout at you and kill you tho ;) muah :*
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