Sometimes existing is a painful suffering experience I feel like I’m trapped in. I’m rushed with negative feelings randomly as if I’m being shoved into a dark deep pit with no means of escaping. Then randomly a door appears out of no where and it opens and I’m let out of the pit. I don’t get to decide when the door will be there and I don’t get to decide when I fall into the pit. It happens and people see me stuck in and look, then just walk away and leave me there. I don’t understand why these feelings come but I hate them.