I don't know why, but everytime at think back at it I'm afraid of the new years, I've never been so scared to go into a new year before... I was happy everytime new years came, I was happy to set new goals, become older and more mature. To see what type of new things come up. But this time it's working me, I'm thinking of the bad things that could happen, and I don't know why... The new year will never be the same, my creativity will never be the same as before. I don't know where these thoughts came from, but they scare me... I just hope the new year isn't as bad as this one... or worse