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so....
I have no idea how i'm going to write this but... here we go
recently ive been going through a lot of shit, My dad and his Canser, now recently finding out he has 5% chance in the next year but only with treatment (witch hes not taking cause hes stubborn so its 2-3 months)
and I just, IDk...
then there is all the Drama with my friends, I can't take sides and I have no clue whats going on because i dont have any contacts with them, and I DON'T want them to fight and im trying to fix things,
theres also guy trouble and how fucking alone I feel....
the fact that I take care of a LOT of people online.
i do my best
it may not always be good but I try
it got to th point were, everyone but me mattered, making sure everyone else had what they needed, worrieing about others insted of myself, keeping others happy.
thats why I came on here in the first place.
thats why I know all of you ^^
setting all the drama asside, I feel broken, I cant stop crying, all day ive been holding it back.....it wont stop, this stupid, "Im not worth it feeling" it wont go away.
now im sitting here, typing with a (attempted susidded) cut arm. and a broken mind, wondering.....
what am I doing?
why do I do these things?
how can I be better?
how can I make everyone happy?
