Depression really isnt a joke. I almost killed myself tonight which was different than my usual thoughts, and it terrified me. I know I joke about this to cope, and others do too, so if you're reading this, and you need a lifeline, I'm there for you, even if we're strangers, because if you follow me, we have more in common than anyone I talk to, and I'm more comfortable about saying these things to you than I am with my own mother, no matter how much I love her. I've struggled updating, so if you follow me for my fics, I'm sorry I've taken so long. I thought taking a break with certain focuses would help me, but I cant be trusted with myself. I'm not really used to anyone responding to me or listening to me, so if you've read this far, thank you. It means a lot.