Plz don't give up hope on your grandma. I'm not Muslim I'm Christian. Plz don't self harm even if you get the feeling that you should. I do it and it isn't a good thing. I try to stop but it is very addicting. Once you start you can't stop without counseling and I am a person who doesn't like to be counseled. Don't be like me plz it is not good, I beg of you.