Jade 🌙🌙

Jade is taking a break from Wattpad, she is alive just taking a break. Jade and I became friends about two days ago irl and she is a little sick but she is just taking a break because its too much for her to handle

I've tried everything. The depression just won't leave me the fuck alone! It keeps on coming back to haunt me! I'm doomed!! I'll never get out of this hell hole called life!!! 

Nice location btw. I love there too! 

I need help....... I think I'm going insane....... Fuck depression....... Fuck feelings....... Fuck life

World. I have one question, answer honestly, why am I so alone?..... 

I'm sitting here waiting for my notifications to go off then I remember...... 
          
          I have basically no friends!!! And the ones I do have either avoid me, or sleep early!!! Haha!!!! Life... Sucks..... 

Why can't I have a normal life..... 

"The Weekend" 
          
          Anna Clendening Lyrics
          
          On the weekend we pretend we got it all together but we're falling apart in time.
          We pose perfect pictures so no one knows we're hurt oh we're living a lie.
          Double homicide.
          
          On the weekends we pretend we got it all together but we're falling apart in time.
          We pose perfect pictures so no one knows we're hurt but oh we're living a lie.
          
          These days people are not who they seem.
          Throwing it up and living it down for a virtual reality.
          We're puppets on a string for social media we're dancing.
          Pinocchio with a 4 foot nose my life's a joke so just keep laughing.
          
          That's all we can do to get by oh my nobody wants to see the ugly side.
          
          On the weekends we pretend we got it all together but we're falling apart in time.
          We pose perfect pictures so no one knows we're hurt but oh we're living a lie.
          
          We're doing pills in the bathroom, getting high on the couch in the back too.
          Doing line after line of okays I'm fine but I guess that's okay cause that shits been glorified.
          Behind the scenes which you don't see dark rooms and bottles we medicate problems
          We do not solve them we just dissolve them the tip of our tongue with the lies that we become.
          
          That's all we can do to get by oh my.
          Nobody wants to see the ugly side.
          Nobody wants to see you fucking cry.
          
          On the weekends we pretend we got it all together but we're falling apart in time.
          We pose perfect pictures so no one knows we're hurt but oh we're living a lie. (We're dying inside)
          On the weekends we pretend we got it all together but we're falling apart in time. (We're dying inside)
          We pose perfect pictures so no one knows we're hurt but oh we're living a lie.
          We're dying inside to feel alive.
          We're dying inside to feel alive.
          

Cimorelli Lyrics
          
          "Good Enough"
          
          I don't know why he left but he's been gone for seven months
          There's a tension in the air that's not so fun
          Mom's been losing weight, I can tell she's not okay
          I wonder if it's my fault he went away
          
          I feel like I'm drowning 
          I feel like I'm broken
          I've been ripped down the middle
          I am ripped down the middle
          
          My house is a war zone
          My life is a battle
          And I'm stuck in the middle
          I am stuck in the middle
          
          Whatever I did, I would take it all back
          I'd circle the world to get back what we had
          Tell me what must I do to deserve your love
          Is there any way I'll ever be good enough?
          Is there any way I'll ever be good enough?
          
          I don't know why he left but I don't think he's coming back
          Relationships don't come easy to me
          I never learned how to love or how to stay when things get rough
          How can you know something you've never seen?
          
          I feel like a hurricane
          My heart is breaking
          It's been ripped down the middle
          I am ripped down the middle
          
          I feel like a lost cause
          All I ever do is screw up
          Ever since I was little I've been ripped down the middle
          
          Whatever I did, I would take it all back
          I'd circle the world to get back what we had
          Tell me what must I do to deserve your love
          Is there any way I'll ever be good enough?
          Is there any way I'll ever be good enough?
          
          I've spent my life trying to hide all of my weakness from everyone
          I try so hard to play the part, cover all my scars
          But it's never enough
          No it's never enough
          
          Whatever I did, I would take it all back
          I'd circle the world for you Mom and Dad
          
          Tell me what must I do to deserve your love
          Is there any way I'll ever be good enough?
          Is there any way I'll ever be good enough?
          Is there anything in this world that I could do?
          Is there any way I'll ever be 
          Maybe I'm already
          Good enough
          

Alex & Sierra Lyrics
          
          "Little Do You Know"
          
          Little do you know
          How I'm breaking while you fall asleep
          Little do you know
          I'm still haunted by the memories
          Little do you know
          I'm tryna pick myself up piece by piece
          
          Little do you know
          I need a little more time
          
          Underneath it all I'm held captive by the hole inside
          I've been holding back for the fear that you might change your mind
          I'm ready to forgive you but forgetting is a harder fight
          
          Little do you know
          I need a little more time
          
          I'll wait, I'll wait
          I love you like you've never felt the pain
          I'll wait
          I promise you don't have to be afraid
          I'll wait
          The love is here and here to stay
          So lay your head on me
          
          Little do you know
          I know you're hurting while I'm sound asleep
          Little do you know
          All my mistakes are slowly drowning me
          Little do you know
          I'm trying to make it better piece by piece
          
          Little do you know
          I, I love you 'til the sun dies
          
          Oh wait, just wait
          I love you like I've never felt the pain
          Just wait
          I love you like I've never been afraid
          Just wait
          Our love is here and here to stay
          So lay your head on me
          
          I'll wait (I'll wait), I'll wait (I'll wait)
          I love you like you've never felt the pain
          I'll wait (I'll wait)
          I promise you/I don't have to be afraid
          I'll wait
          The love is here and here to stay
          So lay your head on me
          Lay your head on me
          So lay your head on me
          
          'Cause little do you know
          I, I love you 'til the sun dies