Kitten 9201

The third was the official end of NEDA. And in that week was self harm awareness day. Gentle reminder to remember butterflies! And that you all are so strong and beautiful. #comeasyouare

Sorry for going MIA. So much has happened I feel like a completely different person. Reading old messages and writing feels so so far away. I hope you all are ok. I'm here if you need me. 

@TLotiel hey my sweetest kitten! I hope your doing okay! I miss and love u!

I feel emotions ten fold and I deal with them even worse. And rejection, abandonment, stress, worrying, and taking these emotions out on myself and others again, and my sister hurting her neck are what I've been trying to balance. People I love in pain just twist the knife in deeper.  But it's the weekend, shes in recovery even if I still can't hug her yet! My foot has been all healed, I have your writing I'm catching up on. And my winter blog to start! So I have a full plate and have just been wanting to curl up and sleep. But I know I've got to get out in the world and live my life! SO! I will be tackling my winter blog! It's December 1! Please send happy energy my sister's way! Drink hot chocolate for me! Stay safe and happy! And thank u for your positive energy my way! My foot is puuuuurfect! I love you all! And thank u to those who tell me they do to! It means so much! 

fall is almost over! It'll be December soon!!!! eeeeee im so excited! I'll be posting my winter blog soon! Don't worry! I will always update my autumn blog so it's ready for next autumn! I'll be that one person still blogging about winter and autumn when its spring! :D

anyways, i know i haven't been much help. but i read something today that might help and touch a lot of you. @ashersveil , he has a bit of a biography called im a trash bag. he has a written chapter called being honest. his name is max. and he has such a beautiful soul like yours. he also has a way to write the help i never can. please read it. it really will help. and if you don't, i will quote him. "god damn, you deserve to live a good life."-max. you do. you all do. so please, meet the sun another day, and just live.

please read my previous post. you all know i forget to hit the announce button. when of my many flaws, and im sorry. but please, please read it.

I know a lot of you are hurting. And i just wish i could hold your souls in my hands and hug them and say it's going to be okay. i don't know how to help. I don't now if i even am helping. But i do know without a shadow of doubt, that you are all so beautiful to me. and i wish you could see yourselves the way i see you all. because then maybe you wouldn't be unlovable. or worthless. or alone. i wish i could just, trade hearts for a day with you all. let me take your broken, numb, scarred, bleeding hearts, and ill give you mine. with all the love i have for you.

I was stupid and reinjured my foot. I may or may not be able to make it through school tomorrow. I'm hoping I will because I don't want to be in bed all day! Just know if I am stuck in bed I'll be catching up on everyone's work! I have a million billion chapters to read and vote and comment on from all of you Sweeties! Reading all of your guy's writing always makes anything in my life so much better and happier! You guys are the best! Anyways! Just wanted to let you know I haven't forgotten about ANY of you! And I will be knocking these chapters out one by one! If there's any people want me to read right away just let me know and I'll get to u first! Thank u so much for sharing your writing with us all! It honestly, honestly, makes my days so much better! I love you my little kittens! Each and every one of you! So stay safe and happy! Drink hot chocolate for me of course! And never stop writing! 

i love you all! remember to take care of yourself and stay warm and drink lots of hot chocolate for me!