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Hi. My girlfriend died early morning around 3 am. I almost have no emotions left. I didn't type this for you to feel bad about my loss, instead I want to say that I won't laugh if you tell me a joke or if you cuddle me I will not cuddle you back. If you hug me I will push you away and do not show me any of your emotions, I've had enough this week and this month. Maia died this month too and I'm just saying not to pressure me with too much shit because I can't handle it. Just give me some space for a while...no one will actually do any of these things because I have no friends left. Everyone I think is my friend ignores me and it really does not help. Again I'm not looking for you to say the words, "OMG! I'm so sorry"....just leave me for some time. You may pm me but don't expect me to show the same type of enthusiasm and happiness. I'm shut down.