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Its one of those days when I can't breath well. My heart is aching. And for some reason I'm back to hating myself. My weak self. The thoughts. The voice in my head is saying your gonna lose them. So detach yourself already. Whats the point of trust anyways? Whats the point of making a promise but never making it real? Why is the world so cruel?

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          Its all the fake love that has come through your heart. At one point you don't know who to trust. You lost it all. And the only thing holding you here is the music that made you love yourself. You stay and believe lies that have been told to you. But in reality its all lies. You don't know anymore. You start to believe that the only way you matter is with the people you say your close with. But even with them the second someone comes along your then pushed aside. Its the toxic relationships that have hurt me over and over again. And I can't escape them. Its apart of me.

I hate the thought I’ll only have memories of the happy times. And I won’t be able to make those times come back again. The memories turn sour and I just start to miss them. They cause me pain now knowing I’ll never have anything close to that again.

It’s always those people that you care about the most that make your insecurities come back. Always making you feel horrible. And make you not feel special anymore.

Don’t you ever just believe the world is always against you. Like everyday something goes wrong or some bad news comes. Like everything and everyone is against you. And the things that go wrong all always coming from people you care about. 

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