Kkfantacy

All of you have probably been wondering, "Where the hell is this writer?" and "When is she finally going to update?" Trust me, I've been asking myself the exact same questions. The truth is, I've lost my interest in writing. At first, I thought it was just writer's block but I've been dealing with this since March, so I don't even know anymore. I think after somehow finishing this book, the Twisted series might end up being my first and last books. 
          	
          	Back then, I had countless ideas. Every time I listened to music, I'd automatically start imagining Taevy, creating scenes, dialogues and plot twists in my head. But that doesn't happen anymore. I don't feel like reading and I don't feel like writing either. I just hope I can finish this book soon. There are probably around 10 chapters left and then Twisted Obsession will finally come to an end. So yes, I take accountability for every accusation you throw at me. I understand your frustration. But at the end of the day, writing isn't something I can force myself to do. I started writing becuz my mind was overflowing with scenes, imaginations and stories that I didn't want to go to waste. That's why I became a writer. But now, that spark is gone. So, I may end up leaving this platform soon.
          	
          	I still have two more stories that are really close to my heart and I genuinely believe they'd be beautiful to tell. But I don't know what the future holds for them, haha. I can't promise anything but I'll do my best to post an update next week.

Yenniieee

@Kkfantacy Author I hope you get well soon. I can't think about you getting sick. 
          	  I understand university gets irritating a lot. 
          	  And Damn- bro 12 hours outside?? Gurl you seriously need rest, a lot of rest. Please take your medicines properly, sleep for a good amount of hours, eat a lot of healthy food, do what makes you happy. Don't worry about the book. We can wait for you as long as you make us. Yk we're whipped for you. You have us under control. 
          	  Seriously don't worry. Your health matters more than the book. 
          	  
          	  Get well soon❤️‍. Love you Mahi
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Kkfantacy

@Jasmine359790 You’re so sweet, Shivani ❤️ A little update about me—my schedule has been so packed lately. I leave home at 6:40 in the morning and don’t get back until around 6 in the evening. University is honestly so exhausting. Today, during lab hours, I was literally on the verge of fainting becuz I was already feeling so sick. During lab hours and clinical postings, we have to stand for 2–4 hours straight and it gets SO exhausting. Somehow, I made it back home (it’s an hour away), changed into something comfortable and the moment I lay down, I just started crying. Like, really badly. I was literally sobbing because my entire body was aching so much. I had a fever and a cold btw and I still had to sit and stand in fully air-conditioned rooms. I kept getting goosebumps again and again. So yeah, I just cried for like ten minutes straight ;) took a leave for tmr though but have a lot of pending work. I literally don't even remember atp that I've a book to finish ༎ຶ⁠‿⁠༎ຶ 
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Jasmine359790

@Kkfantacy Mahiii thank you for being honest with us reading this genuinely broke my heart because I can tell how much you're struggling and I'm really sorry you've been carrying all of this by yourself but please don't blame yourself for losing that spark creativity isn't something that can be forced amd if your heart is exhausted it's okay to rest i know people want updates but I'd much rather wait than have you force yourself to write when it no longer makes you happy or convincing your well-being will always matter more than any chapter really and I'm not saying this just for the sake of it but I really mean it the reason your stories touch us so deeply is because they come from your heart and I'd never want you to lose yourself just to meet our expectations no never
          	  At the same time I hope you don't let this difficult phase convince you that this is the end of your journey as a writer the person who created these beautiful worlds and characters is still you even if the spark feels gone today it doesn't mean it's gone forever right? sometimes our minds just need time to breathe before they can create again and i truly stand by this whether you continue writing after Twisted Obsession or decide to step away for a while I'll always be grateful that I got to read your work and trust me it was and is the best thank you for every emotion every sleepless night every plot twist every laugh and every tear you've given us through your stories but please don't be too hard on yourself take all the time you need heal at your own pace and know that there are readers who appreciate you not just your updates we'll be here whenever you're ready sending you lots of love and hoping you find your spark again one day sending you the biggest virtual hugʕ⁠っ⁠•⁠ᴥ⁠•⁠ʔ⁠っ❤️I hope my message brings you a little happiness even if it's just a little♡
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MissDiva_3010

Hello!
          I know, you are busy 
          But I wanna ask did you left us ? I know writing is not an easy task but I really loved your story, please don't leave us hanging. (ToT)
          I really love your way of writing. Hope you understand my feeling and think about it..
          Take Care and stay healthy (*^^*)

MissDiva_3010

@MissDiva_3010 Aww...it's alright...Take Care 🥰
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Kkfantacy

@MissDiva_3010 also, I don't have any weekends, I went to college even on raksha Bandhan ;) 
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Kkfantacy

I’ll leave after I complete TO. For now, I simply don't have any time. I leave home at 6:40am and return at 6pm and my schedule is packed with higher priority tasks, writing comes last. I write best when I’m at peace and my mind is full of thoughts and scenes but right now I’m so busy that not a single idea comes to mind. I’m really struggling to write and find time for it but I will complete this book for sure.
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Jasmine359790

Happy Birthday Mahiiii! 🥹❤️ I hope the year ahead is a little gentler with you I hope you get plenty of reasons to smile amd peaceful days where you don’t feel like you have to rush or have everything figured out and people make you feel loved and appreciated just as you are your stories may be what brought me to you but it’s YOU that made me stay❤️ I’m genuinely so glad I got to know you and I hope today reminds you just how loved you are
          Happy birthday once again you deserve the happiest year ahead❤️

bilkrii

Damn i miss taevy badly😭

Kkfantacy

@Jasmine359790 DON’T EVEN HAVE TIME TO WATCH C-DRAMAS 😭💔 BRO, THERE ARE SO MANY MASTERPIECES AIRING RIGHT NOW AND A FEW HAVE EVEN FINISHED, BUT I’M STUCK 😭 I CAN’T WATCH A SINGLE ONE OF THEM AHAHAHAHAHA 😭 
            
            It's been three days, I give a try to writing while travelling but nah bro nothing is coming out of me. Just 10 chapters maybe are left and idk bro HOW LONG THIS IS GOING TO TAKE??
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Jasmine359790

@Kkfantacy Mahii❤️ please don’t even think about the book right now you’re literally leaving home at 6:40 and coming back at 6 travelling standing for hours during lab postings amd doing all of this while being sick and still had pending work to do it’s completely understandable that you have no energy left to write I genuinely don't know how you're managing all of this also please don’t feel guilty about it the book can wait your readers can wait but you can’ttttt
          Take tomorrow to rest and recover properly okay?let yourself breathe fir once and honestly you cried because your body is finally signalling you that you need complete rest both mentality and physically please take care of yourself first watch your comfort shows that is chinese dramas the story isn’t going anywhere❤️(⁠っ⁠.⁠❛⁠ ⁠ᴗ⁠ ⁠❛⁠.⁠)⁠っ

Kkfantacy

All of you have probably been wondering, "Where the hell is this writer?" and "When is she finally going to update?" Trust me, I've been asking myself the exact same questions. The truth is, I've lost my interest in writing. At first, I thought it was just writer's block but I've been dealing with this since March, so I don't even know anymore. I think after somehow finishing this book, the Twisted series might end up being my first and last books. 
          
          Back then, I had countless ideas. Every time I listened to music, I'd automatically start imagining Taevy, creating scenes, dialogues and plot twists in my head. But that doesn't happen anymore. I don't feel like reading and I don't feel like writing either. I just hope I can finish this book soon. There are probably around 10 chapters left and then Twisted Obsession will finally come to an end. So yes, I take accountability for every accusation you throw at me. I understand your frustration. But at the end of the day, writing isn't something I can force myself to do. I started writing becuz my mind was overflowing with scenes, imaginations and stories that I didn't want to go to waste. That's why I became a writer. But now, that spark is gone. So, I may end up leaving this platform soon.
          
          I still have two more stories that are really close to my heart and I genuinely believe they'd be beautiful to tell. But I don't know what the future holds for them, haha. I can't promise anything but I'll do my best to post an update next week.

Yenniieee

@Kkfantacy Author I hope you get well soon. I can't think about you getting sick. 
            I understand university gets irritating a lot. 
            And Damn- bro 12 hours outside?? Gurl you seriously need rest, a lot of rest. Please take your medicines properly, sleep for a good amount of hours, eat a lot of healthy food, do what makes you happy. Don't worry about the book. We can wait for you as long as you make us. Yk we're whipped for you. You have us under control. 
            Seriously don't worry. Your health matters more than the book. 
            
            Get well soon❤️‍. Love you Mahi
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Kkfantacy

@Jasmine359790 You’re so sweet, Shivani ❤️ A little update about me—my schedule has been so packed lately. I leave home at 6:40 in the morning and don’t get back until around 6 in the evening. University is honestly so exhausting. Today, during lab hours, I was literally on the verge of fainting becuz I was already feeling so sick. During lab hours and clinical postings, we have to stand for 2–4 hours straight and it gets SO exhausting. Somehow, I made it back home (it’s an hour away), changed into something comfortable and the moment I lay down, I just started crying. Like, really badly. I was literally sobbing because my entire body was aching so much. I had a fever and a cold btw and I still had to sit and stand in fully air-conditioned rooms. I kept getting goosebumps again and again. So yeah, I just cried for like ten minutes straight ;) took a leave for tmr though but have a lot of pending work. I literally don't even remember atp that I've a book to finish ༎ຶ⁠‿⁠༎ຶ 
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Jasmine359790

@Kkfantacy Mahiii thank you for being honest with us reading this genuinely broke my heart because I can tell how much you're struggling and I'm really sorry you've been carrying all of this by yourself but please don't blame yourself for losing that spark creativity isn't something that can be forced amd if your heart is exhausted it's okay to rest i know people want updates but I'd much rather wait than have you force yourself to write when it no longer makes you happy or convincing your well-being will always matter more than any chapter really and I'm not saying this just for the sake of it but I really mean it the reason your stories touch us so deeply is because they come from your heart and I'd never want you to lose yourself just to meet our expectations no never
            At the same time I hope you don't let this difficult phase convince you that this is the end of your journey as a writer the person who created these beautiful worlds and characters is still you even if the spark feels gone today it doesn't mean it's gone forever right? sometimes our minds just need time to breathe before they can create again and i truly stand by this whether you continue writing after Twisted Obsession or decide to step away for a while I'll always be grateful that I got to read your work and trust me it was and is the best thank you for every emotion every sleepless night every plot twist every laugh and every tear you've given us through your stories but please don't be too hard on yourself take all the time you need heal at your own pace and know that there are readers who appreciate you not just your updates we'll be here whenever you're ready sending you lots of love and hoping you find your spark again one day sending you the biggest virtual hugʕ⁠っ⁠•⁠ᴥ⁠•⁠ʔ⁠っ❤️I hope my message brings you a little happiness even if it's just a little♡
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Jasmine359790

Hiiii Mahiiiii❤️
          How have you been? I hope you're doing good and enjoying your time just wanted to check in also did you watch BTS perform in the fifa??

Jasmine359790

@Jasmine359790 I'm so so sorry for your loss Mahi i wish I could hug you rn❤️
            reading this truly broke my heart I can't even imagine how heavy your heart must feel right now especially after finding out days later the way you spoke about him makes it clear that he wasn't just someone you knew he was someone who became a beautiful part of your childhood he may no longer be here physically but the kindness and love he gave will always remain with the people close to him thank you for trusting us enough to share something so personal please don't feel like you have to be okay right now take all the time you need to remember him and to take care of yourself
            May he rest in peace and may you find strength in the beautiful memories you shared with him sending you the biggest hug and comfort Mahiiii if your heart ever feels heavy or you need someone to talk to I'm always here for you really❤️
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Kkfantacy

@Jasmine359790 I did watch BTS HALF TIME SHOW. Today, my heart feels incredibly heavy. Three days ago, someone I had known since kindergarten passed away and I only found out today. I still can't believe he's gone. We had lost touch over the last three years, though we'd occasionally see each other around since we lived in the same colony. He had ASD and knowing how much he silently endured throughout his life makes this loss hurt even more. I truly hope he's finally at peace. He wasn't just a childhood friend. Back in junior school, he would always stand up for me whenever I was bullied. Years later, when we unexpectedly met again in high school, he helped me adjust to a new school that was far from my home, when I had to travel there all alone. He never hesitated to help. We were three friends. The three of us were like Tom and Jerry always arguing, laughing and making memories that I'll never forget. I'm sharing this because my heart feels so heavy today. Life is so fragile and sometimes we don't realize that the last conversation, the last meeting or the last goodbye has already happened. Rest in peace. You'll always be remembered. My deepest condolences to his family and everyone who loved him. 
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Kkfantacy

@Priya3434 I was really sick for a while but that's not an excuse. The truth is, I've been struggling with writer's block and had absolutely zero motivation to write. On top of that, my holidays are coming to an end soon. Ironically, I think the academic pressure might bring my inspiration back becuz I'm somehow at my most motivated when I don't even have time to breathe.

Priya3434

Hey mahi,How have you been? I was just wondering how you've been doing and how the story's going.(⁠´⁠∩⁠。⁠•⁠ ⁠ᵕ⁠ ⁠•⁠。⁠∩⁠`⁠)

Priya3434

@Kkfantacy I'm glad you're doing better now. Take your time and enjoy your break. We'll patiently wait for your return.❤️
            
            
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Kkfantacy

@Priya3434 Besides that, I never lie to you guys. This past month, I've just been enjoying the little free time I have left before I get super busy again. The past year was incredibly heavy for me, I was dealing with a lot and thankfully, that phase is finally over. I'm genuinely happy now so I'm taking some time to enjoy it. Ik all of you are waiting for an update and I truly appreciate that but I have my own life too, right? After everything I've been through, I think I deserve a little time just for myself. Whenever inspiration hits, I immediately start writing down ideas and scenes. I really appreciate all of your patience. (Though I know I've been testing it for a very long time)
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Priya3434

@Kkfantacy I hope you're feeling much better now. Please take care of yourself first. We'll patiently wait for the story whenever you feel ready. Wishing you lots of inspiration and good health.❤️
            
            
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