madowo

Hi! I'm not dead, I've again been coming up with story ideas. I'm never gonna be finishing it probably, as always. And I have yet to put the ones I have thought about in my one book about ideas, and now I've forgotten most. I do have this one idea and I've started the prologue, almost done. 
          I'm about to take a big test, and this is in order to see if I'm ready for college. I can always retake it next year as a senior I think lmao but only if my score is bad. I'm stressing over this, and I'm not feeling ready or prepared. Especially math  and the time.
          Anyway, not dead. Alive. Has anyone seen Encanto? That's one of my biggest hyperfixations right now, especially the songs, specifically We Don't Talk About Bruno and Waiting on a Miracle.

HIII just taking a quick peek!
          How are you today? I hope your having a wonderful day! If not? Your not alone!
          Don't stress yourself to much(even tho i know you can't avoid it, me myself can't-) 
          Drink lots of water! 
          And happy late new year!
          

So I've got a job now. And I know I haven't done anything for a long while, but I'm really tired. Balancing school and my home life is such a chore, but I'm hoping having a job will make me feel slightly better.
          But, I think I'm just gonna write during summer until I graduate. :) Only because that's when we have a long break and I have time to write since I'm barely out. 

Hi, I'm sorry. I really want to write, I do, and I want to publish it, but I'm terribly unmotivated and not doing welm mentally. School starts tomorrow actually, and this is probably going to make things a bit more harder. I have found a new idea as well one night, though now I forgot it. I wish I could've written it down but oh well.
          
          So, anyway, I'll try to write but just don't expect anything for a long while. I might also just publish out a book that is a work in progress like normal people do, just not gonna force myself to write a certain amount of chapters in a certain amount of time. But that will also mean, very spaced out updates. I'm terribly sorry! 
          
          I still have three books planned. One is going to be a oneshot book, and I'll just go ahead and say this, it's going to be for Haikyuu. I have an idea of how it's going to be planned out, but I'm still trying to get ideas for characters that I'll write for.
          
          Second, we have the book that is published and unfinished because I was, yet again, unsatisfied. This happens a lot, which is why I would like to finish a book before publishing so I won't constantly rewrite. I will be doing that again.
          
          And third, we have a KnY based isekai idea. I have in mind, that the main character (Y/N), will be from our time with this pandemic, like a lot of isekai books. But, what I'd like for this, is mc to not know of the Demon Slayer anime or manga, so she goes in blind.
          
          So those are my current plans, I have other books I have planned as well but these three are the ones I'll be working on. Sometime.

I might have to get rid of the bunny. :) I'm having home problems, and we can't take care of her, even if I took care of her. Ahah, not doing okay.
          
          Anyway, I once again, rewrote some outlines because, again, I was unsatisfied. And I have a list of oneshots, platonic and romantic, that I'll also want to work on sometime. But for now, taking a big break. 

I will absolutely cry my eyes out over Kamado Tanjiro >:[
          
          Anyway, I have yet to continue writing. I just haven't felt like it because, well, I'm 17 now and I'm trying to figure out my life plan right now. And it's been making me so tired and not want to do anything because im so stressed. And for what reason? I don't know lmao im really wanting to write, at least nice platonic oneshots would be cool. But I just have no motivation and it'll end up not being great.
          
          I'm trying though! :]

I can't write :D I've run out of energy. And when I was continuing onto the 4th chapter's outline, i realized how dumb the idea was. So now i got rid of it all. But i can't seem to push myself to start again. I can't bring back what I had, so I'll have to eventually start writing.
          
          I've been taking practice tests to try and study for the permit test to drive. I can't read in a book and study, it's basically like looking at words and not ingesting them no matter how many times I read. Practice tests are easier. They may not have the same questions, but they'll be similiar and probably have a lot that are the same. Also, sadly, when I do tests, I tend to panic right then and there and all information slips from my mind and I begin to panic more.
          
          This also is a thing for school. :) i hate that it happens, but hey, I'm somehow made it to 11th grade! 

Hah!! My bunny finally got to see outside. It's not like I force her to stay inside my room, it's just her harness is so hard to get on due to the fact she isn't fond of being picked up. Today she was surprisingly easy, that is if the harness wasn't so big. She kept slipping through.
          
          If she were to roam without it, she would 100% run away. And she showed that today when she went outside. I don't mind her roaming, she's just not yet ready to be off a leash and harness like most bunnies. We don't own a cage thing for her to run around in.
          
          Plus, I like sitting out and watching her roam. I think we need to get a smaller one though and I think that's when we'll let her out again. I'll sit out and eat dinner with her, for sure. Still! :] then she won't eat anything in my room.

I have yet to write anything more than what I've wrote for the book. :[ I've been so tired lately that I just don't feel like writing. I have gotten to chapter 3, and the plot has not yet thickened/started completely. It's obviously going slowly at first, and it's hard to write things to make it interesting. I know what I want for chapter 4, or the main idea of it, i just don't feel like writing out the outline yet. D:

It's not quite the 4th yet for me, a little below an hour it would be though. I just don't feel like wanting to come on here and comment it tomorrow so I'll just get it out. :)
          
          Happy 4th of July. If you celebrate it, that is.