Viper Koi

My life has been a rollercoaster this past few days. I hope my parents is adamant enough on letting me go visit the hospital. Man..

I feel really dizzy and easily fatigued for the past few days. It gotten even worser and i don't think i can go to school atp bc..Otherwise, my ptsd would worsen and i might faint. The blood is still present in my excrement but i'm not on my period rn bc their is still a difference. I'm scared.. :(

Guys is it normal that i feel like everythings suddenly turned really blurry one second and you'd just walked away thinking that your gonna faint but didn't. Almost thought that i almost fainted but didn't which feels almost like a fever dream but it's not at the same time..

How i feel after i'm so traumatized by going to the bathroom, i swore to never ever eat spicy food again. Ts feels so weird gng

Is it weird that i once hoped to get a nightmare and it actually happens. It feels like i'm lucid dreaming even tho i just slept normally as a kid oxo

I might go on hiatus mode depending if my health is bad enough O///O

Lowkirkuinely sucks bc i cannot eat spicy food bc otherwise i get blood diarrhea. Gr..I don't wanna use a bag to pump everyday, i'll die in agony before that happens. But man, atleast fruits and yogurts are delectable tho bc i ain't eating plain ahh vegetables. Anyways, enough of me rambling about my thoughts. Sayonara my followers ;3

How it feels after releasing chapters and then your body genuinely goes through the most painful shit ever ts is not fair