Ko1-Fish

Forgive my absent for not uploading for so long, I had to take a long break for my mental health sake and there are some times that I couldn't even write due to my writing block. I will try to post every 2 weeks and try to keep things consistent. Hopefully this clears up any misunderstandings. Viper signing off

I'm sooo back yall >:)

I'm back on my grind gng :P

My life has been a rollercoaster this past few days. I hope my parents is adamant enough on letting me go visit the hospital. Man..

I feel really dizzy and easily fatigued for the past few days. It gotten even worser and i don't think i can go to school atp bc..Otherwise, my ptsd would worsen and i might faint. The blood is still present in my excrement but i'm not on my period rn bc their is still a difference. I'm scared.. :(

Guys is it normal that i feel like everythings suddenly turned really blurry one second and you'd just walked away thinking that your gonna faint but didn't. Almost thought that i almost fainted but didn't which feels almost like a fever dream but it's not at the same time..

How i feel after i'm so traumatized by going to the bathroom, i swore to never ever eat spicy food again. Ts feels so weird gng

Is it weird that i once hoped to get a nightmare and it actually happens. It feels like i'm lucid dreaming even tho i just slept normally as a kid oxo

I might go on hiatus mode depending if my health is bad enough O///O

Lowkirkuinely sucks bc i cannot eat spicy food bc otherwise i get blood diarrhea. Gr..I don't wanna use a bag to pump everyday, i'll die in agony before that happens. But man, atleast fruits and yogurts are delectable tho bc i ain't eating plain ahh vegetables. Anyways, enough of me rambling about my thoughts. Sayonara my followers ;3