KoalaIsland
Me: *go's to bed shortly after 1AM*
Me: *gets up a 10-ish minutes before 6AM*
Also me: *has insomnia*
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I don't usually put my hair up (anymore) but when I do, I put it into a ponytail (again, mostly) so anyways, I decided to put my hair up today.
So here I am with a messy bun (might be my new favorite hair style) and my dad says: "Nice hair"
Why is this noteworthy?
Well, I don't really DO messy type hairstyles. . . and so I was wondering: does he think I messed up on it?
But also, I'm the type to re-do it and re-do it until I'm satisfied. Sooo
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I hold immense respect for those who suffer silently, and survive. I know how hard it is to deal with pain, wither it be physical, or emotional. It's hard, very hard. I believe that those who suffer silently, are the strongest of us all. They have so much pain within them, and yet, they say nothin. Reasons may differ, but usually, it's because they don't want others to be sad, or in pain, just because they are.
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I keep checking my notifications to see if there's anything......
I think....... I'm craving human interaction. (outside of my family)
You know?
I haven't really had many opportunities to actually TALK to people anymore.
Sure, there's school, but.... I went to the same school from 1st grade to 7th grade. and then BAM I'm suddenly dropped into a new environment, where I know all of 3 people, but can only talk to 2 of them, AND add COVID on top of that-
I can SEE people (vary rarely do I get to have a conversation with someone), and occasionally people email me, but...... it's just not enough.
I miss people. (I'm not talking specifically, although I do miss specific people)
I just feel totally alone. More so than I ever did before COVID. and I thought I felt alone than.
I-
Please. Talk to me.
Gods I'm pathetic. I'm sorry. You probably didn't need, or want to know any of that, huh?
KoalaIsland
So, funny story.
I collapsed in pain earlier, and then, (later) my friend confronts me. She said something along the lines of "Why didn't you tell anyone you were in pain?!" and I gave her a confused look, and replied with "I mean, it's my pain. Its trivial compared to what other go through. Besides, the only way to deal with pain is by yourself"
and she looked at me absolutely horrified.
It was pretty funny.
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ME- Being a closeted Lesbian: *having a conversation w/ my mom*
Me: Next month is June. I like June.
My mom: *gives me a confused look* Why? This month is May. I like May?
Me: June has so many interesting things in it.
My mom: Like what?
Me: .... uhhhh School ends?
M3CRILESS
Thanks for adding my book to your reading list!
KoalaIsland
@M3CRILESS Of course! It was AMAZING! and I absolutely DID NOT want to lose it! I needed to be sure I could read something so amazing again!
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When your friend tells you you need to eat-
Me: But I ate lunch yesterday!
My friend: hunny. No.
Me: *innocent eyes* what?
My friend: You need to eat!
Me: . . . I did!
My friend: Little she-demon, food is important.
Me: I'M NOT A SHE-DEMON! I'M A FUCKING ANGEL!
My friend: ... of course. an 'angel'
Me: *smoll-bean smile*
My friend: *forgets all about the fact that I haven't eaten*
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Odd thought of the day:
Do you think they ever get called because some Gen X (or older) doesn't understand the slang their Gen Z (people) are using?
Do you think exorcists have to be updated on the current "young generation slang"?
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Go back, say.... two years and a half.
Back then, I thought my life was perfect. I thought the rules my parent's had set were standard. And reasonable.
Fast-forward a year.
I was starting to think ... maybe my parent's rules were a little harsh.
Fast-forward another year (and a half)
The rules my parents have..... are pretty dang harsh compared to practically anybody's.
Name (almost) anything.
There are rules in my life about it.
Coffee? Not allowed. (along with almost any other kind of caffeine)
Tight clothes? Don't even think about it.
Sleeves? A requirement.
Shorts above the knees? Heaven forbid.
Swearing? Nope. (That one is pretty standard)
Tattoos? Nah. (That one is pretty standard)
Sleep overs? HA! (I've never had one.)
Parties? As if! (Very questionable)
Church? A must.
Dating? Not until I'm 16.
Makeup? Not until I'm 16.
Sexuality? Gotta be strait. For others, they're accepting, but not within the family.
Fanfiction? Hell no.
Bad grades? Not an option.
You get the point?
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@Coolkid_Mcgee Yeah, it does. I mean, it's pretty bad. Although, no-one in my house has admitted to being into anything but the opposing gender (to my parents) My sister is Bi. My brothers, well, I don't know. Me? Well, I'm not strait, I can tell you that. I'm not ENTIRELY sure how they'd respond, but like, after I move out, I'm gonna tell them, that way if they hate me, it won't really be as much of a bad thing as it would be now.... Oh nah, I mean, they are pretty strict, ..... and the rules are pretty enforced. BUT it's not really bad.... sometimes.... there are a lot of rules, but... I'm kinda used to it, aaaaaand I'm rambling. Shutting up now.
Coolkid_Mcgee
Damn those rules really suck, some of them I also have but I think the worst one your family has is the sexuality one, it’s a horrible thing to be forced into a certain sexuality. Parents with that rule need to understand that their child needs to be who they are and that they can’t control who their child is and who their child likes or what gender their child wants to be or doesn’t want to be. I hope it gets better for you. My parents are a little strict but not nearly as strict as you parents seem to be