KoalaJin

Hey guys..! It's been.. a while, haha. I feel terrible leaving without saying anything and have not been publishing anything at all. I was logged out for a while to take a break for a few months only to leave for I think a year or so now? My mental health is doing well, just now anxious everyday to push myself to become a proper adult now at 19 haha..
          	
          	I have sadly lost my strong determination for writing when I would write furiously almost every week when I started. Now, I've been focusing on my drawings and stressing to improve and been through many burnouts. I keep reminding myself that in due time I'll eventually get better and need to warm up to improve. 
          	
          	Anyways, I don't wanna leave another paragraph and dissappear once more, so I'll have to say what I feared in saying. I mostly wanted to stop myself from saying this due to the many love and support I have received despite being a terrible writer, my structuring in stories is sloppy as you could tell haha

Jeon_Taejin13

@KoalaJin I'm so glad u r back now ಥ‿ಥ Welcome back! Stay!
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KoalaJin

@daddyjinsbabygirl Thank you !!❤ I wish you the best best year!!
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KoalaJin

To conclude it all, once again, thank you guys so so much. I truly love you all. It's understandable if you'll dislike and hate me, but that's alright. All that mattered was that I managed to entertain my readers and audience and spoil them the best I could haha. Thank you. I'm grateful for you all. 
          	  
          	  Let's hope 2021 becomes a better year and we all give ourselves a hug, and pat our backs for the long path we've taken from 2020. Thank you for living this long, and for being strong with me and yourself. 
          	  
          	  Love you all, and please have a wonderful day/night. ❤
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KoalaJin

Hey guys..! It's been.. a while, haha. I feel terrible leaving without saying anything and have not been publishing anything at all. I was logged out for a while to take a break for a few months only to leave for I think a year or so now? My mental health is doing well, just now anxious everyday to push myself to become a proper adult now at 19 haha..
          
          I have sadly lost my strong determination for writing when I would write furiously almost every week when I started. Now, I've been focusing on my drawings and stressing to improve and been through many burnouts. I keep reminding myself that in due time I'll eventually get better and need to warm up to improve. 
          
          Anyways, I don't wanna leave another paragraph and dissappear once more, so I'll have to say what I feared in saying. I mostly wanted to stop myself from saying this due to the many love and support I have received despite being a terrible writer, my structuring in stories is sloppy as you could tell haha

Jeon_Taejin13

@KoalaJin I'm so glad u r back now ಥ‿ಥ Welcome back! Stay!
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KoalaJin

@daddyjinsbabygirl Thank you !!❤ I wish you the best best year!!
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KoalaJin

To conclude it all, once again, thank you guys so so much. I truly love you all. It's understandable if you'll dislike and hate me, but that's alright. All that mattered was that I managed to entertain my readers and audience and spoil them the best I could haha. Thank you. I'm grateful for you all. 
            
            Let's hope 2021 becomes a better year and we all give ourselves a hug, and pat our backs for the long path we've taken from 2020. Thank you for living this long, and for being strong with me and yourself. 
            
            Love you all, and please have a wonderful day/night. ❤
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KoalaJin

Merry belated Christmas! I think it works like that..anyway, I haven't been publishing any chapters as of late since October(?) However!!! 
          I. Just. Got. A. Laptop! So,,,, that means I get to write lots and not cramp up my fingers just like its cramping typing this right now! :D 
          
          Now I can write more comfortably, efficiently and relaxing-ly eh 
          
          I'm so sorry I disappeared again but then again, depression got in the way too so I haven't been writing much and lost complete motivation for everything.
          
          I'm not gonna apologize over this again because I feel like I should write something for fellow readers that struggle the same as I: [lemme switch to laptop real quick]...[continue in comments]

sonounapanciabatta

@KoalaJin  you have no idea how much I needed these words. I had no idea neither. I know this is late but thank you. Thank you for everything, thank you for fighting and for being alive. You'll win this battle, and I know this isn't much coming from a stranger, but you have my full support. You're a strong and beautiful human being, thank you for not giving up.
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KoalaJin

I love you all, and please don't ever lose to yourself. I almost lost myself to my own form because of my own haunting thoughts and manipulation I've put myself through and received from others. Protect yourself of whatever you have. I'm proud to say that I've made it through another year, and that says a lot. Because that meant I didn't lose this agonizing battle of depression and, yet I still battle doesn't mean for me to give in. Respect for those that have fallen, losing to the battle because others failed to recognize that we're all human and are more sensitive than others. Makes me upset that we couldn't do much. I cry honestly, for those that have lost and wondered if that will be me next due to close encounters. Not now, though. I got to experience some nice things lately, and I'd like to see more through this foggy mess. Please. Hang in there, everyone.
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KoalaJin

I don't wanna bombard this post of rants and vents and paragraphs, but long story short, people should be patient with goals and dreams. Be patient with yourself and don't overwork yourself into being the perfect person for others. I tried shaping myself into a genuine, nice, caring person, but I just can't seem to keep the image. It may lose a few people, but at least I'm not suffocating anymore and feel somewhat genuinely happy. Because I still have a lot to find out about myself and more to discover and of course that takes time. I think what I'm trying to say is whatever you're going through, leave it to Time. Don't let it drag on forever by itself though. Do something as you wait. Organize yourself in your own unique way and don't stress. Well, you can stress but don't let it eat you away
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KoalaJin

I. Am. Back. ><!!!!!!! I missed all my friends :< 
          Hugs? I'm feeling so cuddly- ANYWAY, I'm back and ot feels nice to be back. I know I said next month or the following month and such- but I saw so much TaeJin and I had this itching urge to write NOW and also felt bad for leaving you guys on so many cliffhangers. Are you guys excited!?!??! :D Cause I am ^^ 
          
          I'll upload a chapter for each book on October 13th
          
          [Hopefully! No promises hehe]
          
          I love you guys~ I missed you guys a lot, too. 
          
          Okay, okay, gotta finish up on a few touches to a project and start writing. [Probably after re-reading each book since I don't know where I left my scripts for these written books. Hehehe, I'm very forgetful of my own books which is...why..they never make sense..I'm sorry. Forgive me.] OKE I LUV Y'ALL, CHOODNAITE!!!
          
          
          [good night]

HeatherHolland356

@KoalaJin glad to have you back. Love and Miss you
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KoalaJin

@LovelynJanta awww! I'll see if I can update before that date then!
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LovelynJanta

@ KoalaJin  Welcome back!! 
            
            Yes, October 13!! it's will be my present birthday!!!
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KoalaJin

So, I will be going on hiatus due to my lack of writing amd won't be writing for a while. I really didn't want to go on hiatus, but it leaves me no choice but to postpone any uploads of chapters. I'm sorry to leave like this, but when I come back, I'll make sure to write lots. I maybe gone for a month or more. It depends, really. Anyway, I hope to see you guys by then ^^ 
          
          I love you all, and please be healthy, safe and take care of yourselves! 
          
          
          See you! ;n;

Jeon_Taejin13

@KoalaJin Ill surely miss you, see ya & stay safe.
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KoalaJin

this message may be offensive 
alright, after uploading that author's note, I'm going to take a small break from interacting with others. I'm in a state where I can easily explode at any minute from just waking up. Trying to fix yourself together while you got people trying to say negative shit cause they just want to and assuming that the person they wanna hurt is perfectly healthy and normal and just wanna break that. Which is why I mute people immediately who I find suspicious. 
          
          If you didn't intend to offend me in any way, I'd say then message me in dm, but realized- If I muted you then your muted. Sorry. I'll come back in a fresher attitude. Because gee, am I close to feeling toxic any moment. I'm sorry for my actions if I offended you as well. 
          
          I'm just trying to keep the place clean of hate. 
          
          
          I will talk to you guys when I'm better and nicer. 
          See you.