Koko 🦋

19 march, 2023, 2:21 EST 
          
          I hate how clearly I am realizing that I am depressed, but still am trying to convince myself otherwise. 
          
          For god’s sake, I’m nineteen. I could really use some hugs. I don’t need to be felt like an undesirable person around everyone and anyone. I don’t deserve to feel belittled at work despite giving my all. I should not have to look for ways to just make my demons shut up. They keep getting loud, I’m losing my patience. I’m becoming a monster, and that is scaring me more than everything. 

I love it when I silently cry and no one knows. I hate when somebody cares. Leave me alone with my demons, you all stay fine.

Rants November10, 2022
          
          *My mom went to mys tudy room and saw all my little doodles and notes all around the room. She could not sleep all night because she missed me.
          *My work is giving me so less work hours because they have hired more ppl but guys im working my ass out for them. How can they be like that? I really need to work more and pay my college tution!!!
          *Life is pretty, i am lazy, It's a messy situation.
          

I fucking hate this Fucking planet. I hate humans. I hate when people expect me to be kind and child me like i am a kid, but they dont ever consider once how their fucking behavior is too much for my innocent self. i am quiet doesnt mean im not gonna blow up one day. Its been too many times thaat i have broken down in the public transit reflecting back on the shitty feelings. Being home is annoying, home is scary and lonely as fuck.
          
          prolly wattpad is gona block me for swearing so much. But there we go, a late bloomer teen ranting the hell out of her miseries.
          period
          time out
          peace

"You are unworthy, you don't matter, too slow, too useless." Them voices are slowly making me believe them. They are taking too much of my headspace I'm suffocated. 

Happy Birthday bestie~~ ❤️❣️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️✨❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
          I love u so much~ 
          Take care 
          Stay safe
          Be happy 
          U deserve to be~
          I'm proud of you~
          Always remember ur worth 
          Take care and keep smiling ❤️✨

Thanks for ur votes darling ✨❤️

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@HXNEY_BEAR_ hiiii! 
          Aweeee..
          Thank you so much!!!
          
          And In the honor to your this cute message that made my day, I promise you an update within a couple days!
          
          Have a beautiful day✨

Hi beautiful people!
          I always lie about updating u guys with the stories. I'm such a bad author for that!!!
          I'm sorry for all the wait. 
          Just dropping by to let you know that I will be updating sometime next week. 
          
          I do have a valid reason for the delay tho, you will not hate me when I tell u that with the update, I promise.
          
          
          Until then, please bear with me. 
          Your girl,
          Koko