Hi there, I'm just saying I love your story and I'm sorry for the pain you are going through, I have spinal issues and have already had surgery, they think I will need more to maintain mobility and it is scary. Yet I have faith in my neurosurgeon and his team, they really are smart and they know what they are doing so all I really want to say is, talk with them, manage your pain.... that is half the battle and I'm here if you need someone to talk to.... ps I'm a mom too... 3 boys n the youngest is 9 weeks....