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LATINA MAMIIIIIIIIII omg, I love daniella and megan sm and LARA AND SOPHIA AND MANON AND YOONCHAE AND JS THE WHOLEEE GROUPPP

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Today 9/11 happened. Sadly I did not start school yet so I wasn't able to share it, but let me share 2 stories I have about people I know who were somehow connected to the tragedy in a way. I had a friend named Alex, his Grandpa that day was supposed to fix pipes at the Twin towers but he didn't feel specifically well that day and called out of work only that day. It's insane, what if he did go to the Twin towers, that is something that keeps you up at night, I'm glad he called out of work. The second story is the craziest one. A year ago from Today, I had a therapist and she shared how her classmates dad was one of the pilots of the planes that got hijacked. He sadly died, every victim of this Tragedy will forever be remembered inside our hearts. I went to a place in New york, and had the opportunity to touch one of the pieces of the towers that flew onto the ground, it was rusty but I could feel that day in my heart just touching it. Then I walked in a hall full of every victims names, rest in peace to those who died and for those who couldn't be found. Thoughts and prayers are with their family, rest in peace forever. ❤

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Grieving is all the love I couldn't give you then, and even now, I give it to everyone, but I can't give it to you anymore, so Grandma, I'll always love everyone strongly and I promise to always be a leader, I know I'm delusional, typing this when your dead, but that doesn't mean you aren't flying with birds and watching me and all of us from above. But this whole paragraph adds up to one thing I have always wanted to say, I can smile knowing your wings finally sprouted.

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You were so sick already and then we video called you and you were getting better in Pakistan thankfully so I didn't think much of it and I started not to care about you anymore, but then just a few days later, you were thirsty, drank sprite, burped, and you started to vomit blood and got rushed to a hospital, the hospital didn't have any place for you so they transferred you to the only one which was also the worst one, thats where you died. Dads brother hates us now, he doesn't talk to us anymore. I saw the picture of your dead face, grandma, from your dead face I saw how much you were suffering already, it must've been so hard for dad, and you got buried in the worst way possible, in such a ugly place. Eaden comes there time to time to visit you, I hope one day, even though I don't want to go to Pakistan ever, I hope one day I can visit your grave, and all I want to do is cry and lay next to your grave, leave you baby breath flowers and then, once I visit you Grandma, I won't ever come back again, it'll be time that I free myself, but I won't do it yet until the day I go to your grave, I'll keep myself shackled in these chains with the thought of you, I'm torturing myself this much because I won't ever come back after the day I see you again, so I can sacrifice this much of myself until the day I free myself from grieving and not to move on, but so I can finally live, maybe I was numb this whole time because your death shattered all of me, a thousand moments I had taken for granted because I assumed there would be a thousand more.