my great grandma just passed away last week. the fact i wasnt there when she did, whe hardly had any time together. she lives in our province, i and the rest of the family in the city or abroad.
i miss her so much, she seemed so fragile, so beautiful. and now i will never see her anymore. it hurts so much. i wish i couldve been better for her. i feel soo guilty and alone.
but i still hide it to my whole family. not when they are all mourning for her. i have to stay strong, or to pretend to be strong for them, no matter how much pain it is giving me.
