KrisPicky

I've spent three years convinced that I'm a lesbian, and then after a month in college I like a guy. Like what?
          	I can't remember the last time I had such an identity crisis.
          	And if I'm not a lesbian, sure, whatever, it doesn't bother me, but I don't like that I've been keeping secrets from myself.
          	Existence and identity is hard. 

KrisPicky

I've spent three years convinced that I'm a lesbian, and then after a month in college I like a guy. Like what?
          I can't remember the last time I had such an identity crisis.
          And if I'm not a lesbian, sure, whatever, it doesn't bother me, but I don't like that I've been keeping secrets from myself.
          Existence and identity is hard. 

KrisPicky

Recently, I've been feeling incredibly anxious, and I'd really struggled to do things that make me feel like myself, let alone take care of myself. 
          This afternoon, I decided to do something drastic to fix that (I'd already been using breathing exercises and trying to take my mind of everything routinely). So, completely on a whim, I chose to go for a run. I did a lot if running as a child, but I haven't run for years. It was difficult. I did about 5 minutes of actual running, had to walk home, and was out of breath the entire time. However, for the first time in months, my head feels clear, I feel good and, despite the fact that it's late, I'm currently not hyperventilating and thinking I'm about to die.
          
            Also, I saw a baby moorhen (type of bird common in British ponds) 
          
          To conclude, if you're struggling, please try to get out into nature and get some fresh air and some exercise. I have previously scoffed when all of these people on television go on about endorphins, thinking, "what are you on, lad? I'm miserable when I exercise," but today has changed all of that for me, and I really hope posting this story here allows it to help someone else, too.
          
          Have a great day or night, whoever is reading this. 

michaela0001117

hi there, how are you..?
          
          in your bio was that you're british:D 
          you must got adorable english accent then-

michaela0001117

@ michaela0001117  i am alright! and i have funny english 
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KrisPicky

@michaela0001117 I'll be completely honest with you I'm from the north West, so if you're lucky you have an accent vaguely reminiscent of Louis Tomlinson's, but we're just really broad with a lot of weird slang.
            But I'm doing fine, thanks, how are things with you? 
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KrisPicky

Aaaaaa. My favourite writer just fell off the face of wattpad

KrisPicky

@KrisPicky  Thank God they're okay, I was dead worried because they just disappeared. Thanks for letting me know 
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Enniaxx

@KrisPicky omg sorry, I really didn't see this!! And yeah I understand that but yes there are updates actually!! They're on wattpad again and apparently wattpad just deleted their account. You can find their profile on my profile, it's one of the last people I followed :)
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KrisPicky

@Enniaxx Are there any updates?
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Niakiwrites

KrisPicky

I know I didn't update "Harrassment" last time I said I would, but I've been speaking to someone about what's gone on- and they helped me to see that often things like this happen, and many people make the mistakes that I, by some miracle, managed to avoid. I've published the build up to the next part, if anyone's following along, I'm charging my old phone tommorow in order to continue with the quotes from the actual messages.
          Have a great day or night; whoever's reading this, and thank you for your patience: both in enduring this announcement, and for anyone who may be waiting on an update

KrisPicky

I went to my first pride today and it was soooo good. I bought some rainbow braces (suspenders if you live in the US) and my family us verbally abusing me over them. And also for the fact that I messed uo the phrase I was using and told them I was "taking a stick out of fetus Louis' book" apparently it's page, or leaf for some reason but yay, pride!!