I...I turned to look back when I heard a voice
In the middle of night
I was looking down
from my balcony
Overwhelmed by the thoughts , taunts , daily life , my conditions ,listening the same thing from everyone to die , to never born
I closed my ears
I wanted to shout but kept mum
I wanted to cry but kept silent
The silence which was my life
Being a shy and introverted child
Being a obedient child
As the room I was living in first time felt unsafe
The breaths I was trying to catch didn't met me
I hurried to come out
With a thought
Of dying
I started taking deep breaths
Dranked water
Looked at moon
It was calm , soothing
But not able to remove the thought
Unconsciously I move towards the edge of my balcony
Which was adorned with railing
I kept looking it
I climbed the railing and was going to surrender myself to earth
When I heard a voice
A voice says agar bach gayi toh ?
The fear of answering the questions make their space in my mind
My mind started thinking the questions if I will left alive they will ask
I looked down and found it was scaring
I immediately stand myself properly with tears and now the only question in my mind was
Kya marna aasan hota h ?
Nhi right to kyu koi su*cide karta h ?
Kya unki problems mujhse badi h ? Par mujhe toh meri problem bhi nhi pata
I...thought in my mind and go back to my room and slept murmuring the name of my god
Mujhe kuch nhi hua h kuch log puchenge ik they care for me and i really appreciate it but sacchi kuch nhi hua h and this all is just idk