Kumi_day
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I wanna breathe but it feels like something is squeezing all air out of my lungs right when I breathe in. That weight on my heart. It hurts. I’m sorry if I offended you. I didn’t mean to. Don’t leave me. Please stay. I need you. My days would be so plain without you. I promised myself to never try as hard as possible to keep someone around. Yet here I am, begging and whining. So pathetic. It makes me wanna puke. What did god think, when he put Someone like me to the world? Nobody needs me anyways. And everything I do hurts others. I don’t want to live that way. Why can’t I be a child again? It was all so easy back then. No big problems. No fucking self hate. I hate that person I have become. The younger me would as well. I hurt people if I don’t want to. Everything I do or don’t hurts others. Why do I have to live? I don’t wanna give up but I don’t want it to keep staying that way either. Why is it dark when I open my eyes? I’m not getting bullied. At school not at least. My mind bullies me. And that hurts even more because my mind is the first one to comment on all the mistakes I make.
