Erin Burr, Sir

So in band I was minding my own business, assembling meh clarinet u know. Then one of my gay friends came over and lightly kicked my leg, saying later that" i was ace i wouldnt understand"

So, Do you know the moment when you jolt but you are not sure if it was forwards or backwards? Yeah, that is my life at this moment. Warning this may be sad, read on at your own risk. So, my last grandparent, Granny, 2 years ago was moved into a nursing home at the death of her husband. After a failed escape attempt she was put into memory care. Just after that my niece who was 7 at the time was diagnosed with stage 4 neuroblastoma. If you don't know neuroblastoma is mainly in toddlers from birth to 3 years, so it was especially life threatening. My niece is fine now the cancer is shrinking and moving away from her spine. Anyway, Saturday we got a call that Granny was going downhill fast and the 3 remaining of my dad's brothers were going to go see her. We went to go see her on Sunday. She died 20 mins or so before we got there. It was scary and I am ashamed to say that I clung to my brother the whole night. To this point I had only seen one dead body and that was from the waist up so seeing my grandmother dead full body like that scared me. She did not look like herself. Her skin was discolored in many places and her hair was almost transparent. I know there is nothing to be afraid of but I am still scared. Still we are not really full out mourning. We know it was her time and we believed that she planned when she would die in order to bring her sons together for christmas.

So, I just figure out that I am a demiro ace demigirl. (I have known I am demiro ace for a while now tho).  I use she her, they them pronouns and I want to be called Erin now. Thank you!

Im strange so my intrusive thought randomly get triggered. Here are a couple of examples of things that happened, IN CLASS. 
          We were reading "The tell-tale heart" by edgar allan poe in class right... mhm... so at one part it is like"you would laugh to see how cunningly I thrust it in." my mind was just like  ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) 
          also my ga studies teacher, real flamboyant guy right. he start singing about what a beautiful mornting it is (he rly talks like that) and i'm half asleep and thought he said someone was beautiful so there is something wrong with me. HOPE SOMEONE RELATES TO THIS. comment if u relate or had something like that happen

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Umm so sry i might not be able to do much with will of dusk this week besides grammerly i have been real stressed sooo yeeeah

Hey meh peeps. Just a warning for people who read Will Of Dusk and have it set up to get notifications from it. I ran it through grammerly and plan to send the update for like all the chapters so far in like ummmm 3 hours cus the bus and parents being a fing terror to live with

Yeah, I am a fan of Sanders sides and Hazbin hotel. I am willing to rp anyone but no smut. Alastor is aromantic asexual sooo yeah. I also love the aphmau fandom but i don't know much. Please read my book and give me constructive criticism. I want to publish it one day an need all the help I can get.