tinysnowsparks

i never thought i'll lose you now . come to think of it , nine years ago we met and i had never expected that you'll be such important person for me . how did we become so close to each other ? we started off from being stranger , to the best friends pair ever . i didnt get to tell this to you at all , we never said it directly but i love you , i really love you . i dont love any of my friend as much as you . only if you know how important you are for me . remember how uch time we spent with each other ? heck , you're that one friend i cried so much for . you made me sad hundred of times but still - still on every day , my best conv was with u . we grow up together , and i found out this is our last moment together . then , who will sit with me during recess , then who will talk about stupid things with me ? who would keep me company ? i lost so much friend but in my mind , at least not you . at least not u , and i'll be really glad if you stay . but no. you'll leave real soon . shall i blame those community who took my bestfriend away ? i think its all my fault , on that day u said ure having a bad day , and u go home , finding that one vid that change urself , i wish that wasnt ur bad day . had i walked to u that day , make u laugh and do stupid things to you , and u felt a little bit happier that day because of me , u wouldnt change , would you ? i keep on thinking bout that . u promised to stay with me . u promised , why dont u keep those promises ? im jealous of those bestfriends i see , because i want to do the same with u . i miss u , i miss the old us , carefree and loud . we cant go back to those days , can we ? i miss us . we ate together , we sat next to each other in every classes . they called us twin  , cause we looked like one .

tinysnowsparks

its the fact that no one can be ur friend anymore . how i wish i could run away and start my new life somewhere else . heck yeah they're nice and sweet . whats better than allowing me to join them play badminton , invite me to eat with them everytime they see me alone ? they are nice but i cant bring myself to talk as a friend with them . how jealous i am towards them , who's so playful and fun , warm and accepted by everyone . i'll just sit at the corner , beside the window , watching and laughing alone . there's no better classmate for me , they're just so sweet but why am i still longing for omega and lambda ? should i just - pronounce iman dead ?

tinysnowsparks

low la - tetibe rasa macam ada yang tak kena dengan aku . aku takla pandai macam budak ii kelas aku tu so i tried to give best in exam - tapi tah ah . bila marks subject lain dah okay , improved , marks subject yang aku score sebelum ni pulak decrease . dah ah kena label "budak bawah" semata ii sebab tak hantar speaking astu dapat tp4 je sksks tau salah aku tapi siyes low gila rasa - used to be a good student tapi tah ah tak guna corona . lost self-esteem macam tu je . sebab nilah aku tak suka pergi sekolah . bukan nak kesah sangat apa orang cakap tapi aku sendiri yang rasa macam i lack a lot . it hurts . rindu nak jadi macam dulu . rindu jadi topper time sekolah rendah . rindu when i used to be teacher's favourite , friendly person . rindu . i miss everything .

tinysnowsparks

nyah - how was him today ? tak payahla ejek dia sotong duh . one day ure gonna miss him sm but u can't even see him in pixels . aku tau cringe , awkward kalau kau nak express gratitude kat dia ahahahaha - kalau aku ulang masa pun , aku tak akan ubah apa ii . entah . the old memories of us five is just so beautiful that i dont even want to change anything walaupun at the end dia dah tak ada dengan kita lagi dah . kalau aku dapat ulang masa , aku nak kacau dia sungguh ii ahahaha - memang tak ah tiba ii aku nak baik dengan dia , that's just weird and tu tak ada dalam memory aku so no .