LAMin84

... I've got a question... did i do the right thing of... disconnecting... from facebook? Cause i think i did something VERY stupid. Help. 

LAMin84

Ummm so... i need help... this acc of mine is connected to my fb acc which was hacked and... I'm afraid the day will come i won't be able to open it again (what i dread most is being unable to read what i want whenever i want). So i tried to fix the problem idk if FB hates me or I'm just stupid but... i hate it. I've had my FB for so long and that the only way for me to contact my teachers and classmates... i really don't know what to do and how to fix this mess I'm in all i know is I'm in rage and this sucks. Help me. 

LAMin84

... how can one manage to make a story within a day and plan to post it within the day but forgets with months... because I genuinely wanna know how I manage to F it up. My stories are ending but aren't posted for some reason I don't know. Hopefully I'll end up post them all till the end this yr dang it. I'm too bored with life that I end up doing nothing at all. 

LAMin84

I promised to update after 15 hours and i was bout to update... i even made 2 chapters... but still unable to update... so now i feel so bad.... i promised... and i broke that promise on my own. I'm so sorry.  I'll update 3 chapters soon on slaughter i swear. I'll just update daily 1 chapter but I'll update 3 later this day... 
          
          
          May 7 2022
          01.10 am 

LAMin84

See here I'm a fan of shipping characters. Bxb characters. Now i gotta tell ya all somethin i am unto tsukihina but i crave tsukikage. I stan headcannon innocent bean kageyama tobio. I strongly believe he deserves all the love and protection. 
          
          
          So as impulsive as I am, I'll write a kageyama fluff... nah not really I love angst. I wanna make some people suffer emotionally damage. Rage, madness, regret, guilt, and last but least helpless in reading my story. 
          
          
          I've been searching of something. The tears i shed over kageyama hasn't reached a pool 7ft deep and 6 square meters deep yet, when it does I'll lay low again. 
          
          
          P.s. don't hate. To those who read my crappy story. I'll upload the un-uploaded chaps soon. 

LAMin84

There's a lot of things to do but never has enough energy, motivation, and time for it. Lazy. 
          
          There's a lot of words to say but never dares to for whats the point if no one even listens?. Cold.
          
          There's a lot of things we know that can hurt them but we never dare to let them know for they might get hurt. Traitor. 
          
          Things get broken some can be fixed or replaced. We aren't things we get scars and can't be replaced. 
          
          Machines overheat and explode. We breakdown. 
          
          We each, individual has emotions and rights to feel but most of us forgets that other people also has such privilege. 
          
          Fight for yourself but that doesn't mean you can step unto people's feelings like a dirty rag. Try to understand of how you'll do if you were them. 
          
          Nov. 18, 2021

LAMin84

@Bluehairedneko I very thankful it made you feel better
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Bluehairedneko

@LAMin84 Thank you. That made my day
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LAMin84

Do you guys believe in the belief about dead people visiting you in your dreams? 
          
          I do. I've had so many dreams about my dad so far every time we'd be chillin' talking about random and recent stuff. We talked like how we used to when i was a young girl. His lil baby girl, his only daughter. He pampered me well not too much just enough to show affection.  
          
          But today.... he looked lively and i knew he was dead... but i ignored the fact that he was dead all it mattered was he's there. But then i remembered. That he was there cause he felt like he needed to be there.... that everytime he goes away I'd feel the stare of confusion and pity from those people in my dream. That everytime i mention his name he'd be there right away almost as if i was in peril and his ready to save me. On that dream we tried to make his soul to be peaceful yet he still kept coming back even healthier than ever as if never sick. Until i tried to talk it out with him. He was on a rush, coming my way asking if i was fine if everything was okay.... then he said 'I'm right here it'll be all fine.' And then i told him 'everything will be fine eventually, you don't have to worry I'll be fine. You should be in peace. You should go on, move on. Be happy. That'll make me happy. So please be at peace be happy. When you get there tell them i love them and you tell them ^i love you^ and i love you, i love you pa.'  and then vanished with a smile in his face almost not wanting to go but he went. It really is like the last time I'll see him. My father, my guardian angel, my hero. I finally said farewell to him, a proper one this time. I really hope his happy out there. 

LAMin84

@CaratzentinyKhit i hope he is there and having a great time he still deserves. For i believe that villains are lost heroes. 
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LAMin84

@PastTimer oh yes tnx luckily before i left to work for our grand aunt in the city that we got to talk and i get to tell him the words I've been holding i love you and as i heard his apologies kept grounded. Tnx again
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CaratzentinyKhit

@LAMin84 omg Sorry for your loss. He will be looking down from heaven❤️❤️❤️
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PastTimer

Thanks for loving the story! :D

PastTimer

Nevertheless, thanks again! ❣️
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