Hey it's ok my father sexually harassed me and blamed me for everything bad thing my sister did forced me to eat when I was full and because of that I have sensory issues and he dealt with drugs and ate them and just a few weeks ago got bailed from jail
I'm sorry to hear that, but suicide isn't the answer sometimes. I now live as a family of four with my mother and my little brothers, I'm always being told to be there for them. I have a friend whose wonderful and waiting for me. I do sometimes wish I can end it all, I have to know that there actually some good things in the world.