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Chaoooooos

Whoa logging onto Wattpad again. Just remembered this place exists. Still considering deleting the account but it has so many memories!! Literally met my fiance here. Currently trying to start the process of starting T so that’s cool. Relationship still strong as heck. On Twitter and discord still (I
          Hate Twitter but alas it’s a place to advertise art). Speaking of art, gotten kinda better at that

Why do such different things as autosexuality and NPD get confused? You may be called a narcissist, but they don't mean NPD at all? Why are such different mental states, the common manifestation of which is only that a person is convinced of his own exceptionalism and extraordinary value, confused or connected? Moreover, in the case of NPD, a person actually has a damaged sense of self-worth, so they are in a constant search for confirmation of their exceptionalism. Why are autosexuals called narcissists anyway? Let's start with the root. «Narco» is translated from Greek as "numbness, stupefaction, paralysis". This, by the way, has the same root as «n…rcotic» – also numbness, and also under a certain ecstasy. Perhaps the term "narcissism" is even more correct as a synonym for "autosexuality" rather than in relation to this kind of personality disorder. Like, you get this numb feeling when you look at your own body. But how can you get "numb" with NPD? Perhaps the point here is that you become so enamored with your supposed superiority that you begin to become numb to yourself. However, no other synonym has been invented for NPD. I don't know which came first, the chicken or the egg, what was the term "narcissism" originally used for - as a synonym for autosexuality or as a designation for "narcissistic personality disorder", but perhaps it really shouldn't have been associated with autosexuality when it was already associated with personality disorder? After all, this is precisely what caused a whirlwind of discontent in the style of “autosexuals are not narcissists,” and they didn’t come up with another synonym for NPD. Yes, the connection to the "numbness" associated with NPD is quite distant, but "hysteria" also comes from the word "uterus"—previously, "hysterical" behavior was associated with the "wandering of the uterus" – if the uterus shifts, then signs of hysteria appear. However, "hysteria" hasn't become synonymous with any biological problems with uterus..

c h a o s

Another update?? Still alive. Considering the LGBTQ+ book but idk. Had my bday
          
          Yeah.

Chaos. 

Another life update! I’m alive, still going to the hospital a bunch. Had a surgery. Health issues are making me real bad physically
          
          I read an actual book. Scum villain’s self saving system. Loved it

Oogily Boogily

Support to all the LGBTQAI members who see this :D (I personally am straight but ily all)

Life update: hi I do art commissions now. https://mikethesheep.carrd.co/
          
          I visit the hospital for treatments like almost once a week now. I have so many health issues lol
          
          I have become even worse at keeping in contact with people, sadly. Too anxious to message first, and with my health and depression as of late I felt too tired to force myself to be super social and now? I just feel too guilty to reach out because of how long it’s been… I’m practically useless unless people reach out first. People deserve better than me, honestly.
          
          Anyway! Uh imma unpublish that one meme book because of. Well. Yeah
          
          LGBTQ+ book is gonna stay up tho
          
          Cat is doing well. She is just a lil cuddly baby as always
          
          Depression being its usual self
          
          Bai bai!